Choices for the crappy life

I know gv isn't pych therapy. Aahh but still who cares?

You know what it means to be a middle class Indian family girl? It means you can't be ambitious, you have to be married by 25 and be pregnant by 30 and for God sakes you can't have a divorce even if your Husband is half gay and has been facing erectile dysfunctions for years and doesn't have interest in sex! I thought of suicide and was almost about to cut my wrists when I thought of my Parents.

But still if you open up to your Parents they would say shut your trap and be supportive. But still I flew away from my Husband and got a divorce.

Half the time I wish I were born as a boy or never at all or had cut myself or had opted for foreign education even if I am the only child caring for my parents.

I know life sucks most of the time. I know it's ok to divorce a guy with mommy issues. Is it ok to come back to your own home and know you don't have any space or room for yourself, where you have grown up? Is it ok to come back home and be lonely? Is it ok to come back home and still can't sleep and need sleeping pills even if it's only for a few months as you can't bear to see the disappointment in their eyes?

I know life isn't fair. But if Mother or Parents aren't supportive of their only child, then hell yeah, I don't care too... But it's easy to say.. Very hard to implement...

So for all men or women who are facing such issues... Just learn that sometimes people even if it's your family don't understand your problems "Ignorance is bliss!" And yes be selfish... People will talk trash no matter how much you care...

Enjoy your life! Happy Dussehra! And let's hope next year we all will find our goals in our life! 😊