Confession of a Lost Soul in Bengaluru 💔🌆

Back in college (2020), I went through my first breakup.. She ended things because of her family, and though I respected her decision, it left me shattered. Even today, I still love her and miss her presence in my life. Every time I see couples, hear love songs, or watch romantic movies, those memories haunt me.

To start fresh, I moved from Chennai to Bengaluru(May 2025), hoping to escape the places and memories that hurt me. But here, loneliness has become my constant companion. Everywhere I go – on the roads, in the bus, at the office – I see people in pairs (maybe they're just friends, but who knows). I can’t help but feel like I need someone too, even if it's just a friend from the opposite gender to share my thoughts and fight this emptiness.

But there’s a catch: I’m an introvert. Striking up a conversation with new people terrifies me. So, I tried dating apps like Bumble, Hinge, and Tinder, hoping for a connection. Paid for premium features multiple times, thinking it would help. But I ended up uninstalling them in just three days. Why? Because I’m scared of falling in love again and getting hurt all over. My mind feels so unstable right now.

I even tried starting a meme page to connect with people in Bengaluru. Deleted that too in three days (yes, that’s how "stable" I am). I've thrown myself into distractions—playing badminton daily, extending work hours, learning new IT skills—but nothing seems to work. Those triggers are always lurking around the corner, ready to pull me back into my spiral of loneliness.

For the last four years, I’ve been telling myself: Time heals everything. And even now, I’m still hoping it does.

If you’ve ever felt like this, or have advice to share, I’d love to hear it.

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