Fucxed Up!
M a 17 year old guy who is pursuing his btech degree from a tier 3 College and that too i am here after paying a donation of 1 lakh rupees in IT department. The past few years were so fucxed up for me ! Like i am not good in anything, neither studies neither sports neither communication, i got 77 % in std 10th , 58% in std 12th , 51 percentile in jee mains, 56 percentile in mhtcet where i wasted all my parents money preparing for jee from AAKASH classes which took 4 lakhs as a coaching fee . I used to play sports but i was avg in every sport . I also started my own print on demand business , In which i made a website using Shopify and marketed some poducts but i also failed there burning up my parents money again , i am from a middle class family where my father earns only 18 lakhs a year and i can't even help them making some money for my family . All my friends are coding , being social media influencers and i am just in a fake world where i show as i am the best to other guys . I have started a thrifting business with some of my college friends again and also on the edge of loosing that money , i don't even know coding basics , i don't know what to do next , my semester exams are from Jan 2 and i haven't studied a single thing for that . What should i do how should i proceed in my life !
While going through your post, I began to believe it's my life story except the business part.
85% in 10th, 52% in 12th and 67% in Btech which took five years due to 11 backlogs in 5th semester. Total 26 marks in IITJEE - 2014 after preparing from IITians PACE.
I'm currently employed in Australia's no.1 Bank as a Data Analyst and have always worked in reputed MNCs. No paid courses after degree too.
What I can suggest is, believe in yourself, don't think and try to do everything. It's okay to start something small even if it's a business or a job. Just do something and keep getting better at it. The tortoise actually wins the race EVERY F*CKING TIME.
Being everywhere and doing everything at one time does not give results! And stop writing essays on what a great failure you are, you are just desperately trying to fail at everything one after another.
Keep digging 5 feet every 100 meters and you have a wasteland, keep digging at one place up to 60 feet and you have a well which you can utilize for many things.
Social media is for relieving stress, recharge and refocus, do not use it as a blueprint for the future, no one has any idea what they are doing with their life here.
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It's going to be okay buddy, it's great that you're trying to hustle hard early on. Keep trying things, something will work out eventually. Do try and finish college though. Degree helps in many things.
Your father is an angel 😇👼🏼 seriously. I can't imagine my situation if I wasted my life like yours. Luckily I got into an IIT.
Considering your age, you're doing a load of hustle than others. It will get paid eventually, don't worry keep on grinding 💪