Maa.. A word that signifies life

It's been a month today. Never ever thought, I'd go to live a month without touching maa. Have never felt so weak & vulnerable. She wasn’t in the best of her health but she was my strength, my forever cheerleader, wishing me a Happy journey before every journey and calling every DP of mine a good one. Her health deteriorated but she always cared for mine. In a life that’s full of surprises, only she was routine- with her love, care and selflessness.

Maa took away a part of me which is never coming back. No matter how hard I try , to be strong & happy, my heart knows no logic, rationale can make me live with this truth that I will never ever be able to touch her hand, hold her around the arms and protect her in a crowded place with my arms shielding her. I have missed her random links to order something, good morning texts-Khaana kya khaega , beta apna dhyan rakhna and tum mera jaan hain.

When she said Ab humko jaane do, I didnt know this is what Jaana means. Otherwise, I would have not succumbed to it. I would have gone with her or got her back.

Mummy nahi jaa sakti hain, kyuki main jaane nahi deta. Itni tightly pakadta ki suffocation hoti thodi but maa nahi mind karti. She would not have bargained living with me for anything else in the world.

Maa is a story with no ending. In every breath that I take and every step that I walk, I hold her hands firmly, tightly , not lettting anything come in between.

For that one warm hug, I would let everything else take a back seat.