Adulthood 🫡

Although most of us moved out as teens to pursue our degrees, during college, one is surrounded by friends all around, and it's hard for loneliness to hit except for those 1 AM Nights. But as an early career working professional, for the 1st time in life, most start feeling lonely, pick themselves up cook their meals, and maybe apply to new jobs because you hate your current job. The first thought over the weekends is to do the laundry and clean up the mess you made over there is no one for you to come back to, no matter how bad your day was, you still have to work on weekdays. What I hate the most about this stage is the relationships and friendships, being away from parents, surrounded by people in the office but can't open up to, maybe you are lucky and make friends in the office but still, not even getting the time to call them, and having multiple colleagues to hangout with but the day you switch jobs you will be leaving them behind, just like your high school friends were left behind when you moved to college, just like your college friends were left behind when you moved cities for a job. You are aware and mature enough to know your mistakes and fuck-ups in the past but you are also chained in the shackles of habits you have made over the last 20 years. There is an opportunity cost to everything, do you sleep early on the weekend or party Friday night and end up being hungover on Saturday too, do you give your best to the job or start your master's prep? It's like a world of illusions that lets you believe that something better is 10 steps away and does not let you sit still in the present.

By each passing year of my college, im learning the art of being alone and enjoying peace in solitude. The situation and scenes are getting worse and worse, and i lose myself on a daily basis. Now, it has become a routine to find myself by dropping the last inch of patience, self-love, and understanding.

In a very chaotic place right now, moving to a new city, away from home for the first time, starting a LDR, nervously excited about the whole thing. Want to pick up new things. 1. News: Shit at knowing what's happening around me. I know it's important but there's so much content everywhere. What few platforms will cover most of it? (PS: GV notifs sometimes do help with GK and starts good conversations :P) 2. Books: Used to love them, trying to find my way back. Psychology, non fiction recommendations welcome 3. Fitness: Gym jaana hai! Can show up consistently, just want a good environment, diet also needs work :/ 4. Upskill: Marketer here. Don't feel like doing this most days, but aise nahi chalega, kaafi zyada hi chill kar lia 🥲 What more can I do?