I'm confused about my future

Hello, everyone. I need your thoughts on this subject. I presently have 1.8 years of experience. After 7 months as a Software Engineer/Analyst, I quit the company due to poor job quality (4 months looking for work). Later joined a company, worked there for 9 months as a Web Developer, I was laid off. (8 months looking for work) currently 5 months (Fresher Application Developer) and counting. They hired me as a fresher because I did not have a good one-year experience. However, I rarely describe these as experiences 😅 In my current firm, I work on Flutter, however they recently assigned me testing tasks, which I am currently working on. I haven't done any development work in the last 3 months. When I joined, another guy joined with me; he had recently started a project, but I hadn't. Not only that, but every day I feel as if I am being left out of something vital. Recently, our manager handed us some documents to read, such as HTML and CSS, but that other guy and other members received CI/CD pipelines, Flutter Fastline, and other HTML and CSS-related tools. And the gap in knowledge is that it is constantly expanding between myself and my teammates. At home, I'm studying all of this, but they get to experience it firsthand in an established project, whereas I don't. This is making me frustrated and melancholy at the same time. I'm not sure what to do. How do I proceed from here? I need all of your honest feedback on this. Please 🙏🏼