These are my thoughts that go through my head as I work towards a healthy and happy life. I wrote them down to never forget them, and come back to them whenever I lose sight. I am sharing this here in hopes that this might help someone else too, as a lot of us are going through something or the other since we got into adulthood. This is written in first person, so read it as something you are telling yourself :)
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It happened, it's in the past. There is nothing that I can do to change it. I can only learn and grow from my mistakes, from the wrongs that happened to me. I can change where I am, how I am and how I live my life. I have that power, and no one can take that away from me.
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This time would never come back. If I don't like how my life is today, my standing, then I need to work on changing it. I need to ponder on the question "Do I want to be at this same place a few months down the road?" Yes, I am talking about months and not years, because if I don't like where I am today, I shouldn't be liking it ever, and it doesn't have to take a long time for me to realise this.
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I won't ever have everything figured out, such is the nature of life. It's not a script; instead it is unscripted and spontaneous. There would always be something new, something that would demand my attention, something that is unfamiliar and uncertain, and I have to learn to live in the flow of it all.
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I don't know where I am going, what will happen, what life has in store for me. I don't know anything, but isn't that beautiful? That this is that mysterious book, whose pages turn with time. But at the same time it isn't a mystery at all because what would happen to me would be the result of my work and efforts, at least to some extent, to the extent where things are under my control.
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And if something went out of control in the past, till when should I punish myself over it? Till when should I keep doubting myself, keep being afraid? I am wiser now, and my future self would be too. I need to have faith in myself and believe that I am going to make the right decisions. I have a sensible head on me; I am intelligent, and aware.
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Also, what is going to happen is unknown, uncertain, so why do I keep forgetting my own words? That I am not afraid of failing, rather I am afraid of not trying. Let's never forget it ever again. Let's do this life right, let me do right by myself. Let me live this life to the fullest. Let me gift myself the life I would be proud of having lived when I take my final breath and leave this world behind. Let me be present. Let me do it all and more. Let me squeeze life in the tightest of hugs that I could ever give, and not be the first one to let go. Let life let go of me when it's time. So until then, let's do this zindagi!
