Worst part is not able to stop thinking about it, yet doing nothing towards completing it till the 11th hour

Hi Guys, I'm an SDE and I have this weird problem where I stress too much when some work is given to me which I don't understand. Basically I'm not scared of high workload, as long as I know how to do it. Because then I know IT WILL BE DONE, I just have to work to finish it. But when I get stuck on a problem, I DONT KNOW IF IT WILL BE DONE, I just keep thinking about it even if I close my laptop. The more I think, the more scary the problem becomes and then I start thinking if it continues and I'm not able to deliver more work, I might get fired and then during background verification for the next company, they will see I was fired and then no one will hire me. Basically my thoughts spiral out of control and make my life miserable to the point where I don't feel hungry. If I'm confident I'm very confident, I feel like i can do any problem but when I see myself failing multiple times, i lose my mental strength I need help and I want to improve this nature, not get stressed when things go south. Do you guys feel the same or know how to handle it Any books or words of wisdom or thought process that you follow which helps you deal with job related work stress will be extremely helpful.

I always think of studying or building that one project over the weekend or complete that one chore which is pending from past 2 years! But fail everytime, I don't even move on weekends i don't like going anywhere I don't even like house full of people I just want quite time in weekends but unfortunately don't get it so I feel like I have not relaxed properly and this makes me think I deserve to be lazy all because of this have not studied from a long time so much so that I am almost back to being a noob on my skills its so freakin heart breaking where I have landed myself and I repeatedly do this every week! I can't even focus on one thing. Even if I quit social media and get serious it's just for 2-3 days max after that I am back to the procrastination den. Please guide, seriously need advice and steps that can be helpful to overcome this.

I have been in this dilemma for the past two years. Work is nothing interesting to write about. Literally frozen learning anything new. Was able to start with teaching through an opportunity and started liking it. But the inability to process thoughts in a streamlined execution plan is throwing me off. There are so many things to do, but so little attention span. I want to be grateful for what I have but also want to prove to myself that my ability is probably better than this, to toil this way. I thought moving to a better job with better money might be the solution but is it ? Do people relate to this or is this just a me thing? Please share your thoughts. Any suggestions to get out of this loop is welcome.

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My manager who is a European is going on a leave for 1 month now + 1 month in December + 15 days of official holidays and here I am hesitant to take a leave for even 1 day even when sick. Did you face this hesitation and how did you handle it? I am reaching burn out level but i am unable to take leaves because of this hesitation

It's been 3 years ever since I got to know about all the things that I could've done other than choosing engineering. Surely I didn't have balls back then and I told myself that I would explore all the possible domains be it tech/des/marketing/finance/operations. It's been two years in uni now and I really don't know what I can count on. I know a bunch of things but don't know a thing enough to make something out of it. I moved to blr thinking that I would get the city exposure but I am usually caught up in uni things(it's an excuse, I am barely studying). Days are just passing by and everyday this thought bugs me at the back of my mind that even though I am capable enough of doing it, why haven't I done it yet? It's not that I'm chilling or partying, I am just caught up in this vicious cycle where I want to get started working on something fulfilling yet haven't found a way yet to do so. I can go on with the usual engineering path and sit for placements and get that avg or little more than that package but I think that CTC doesn't move me, rather doing something fulfilling and meaningful does. I wish that I could really mean it when I say that I want to do something where I enjoy the process, the daily-to-do-tasks and not the end goal/ paycheck. I've had this idea of working at startups and exploring different domains/departments and figuring out what is the right thing for me; a domain where I bring the best out of me and feel fulfilled as well. Now I certainly cannot do this by signing up for courses that I will never complete, I would rather prefer to work under someone and learn things as I do them. Haven't mailed/reached out any founders yet. Help me in navigating a bit and I will forever be indebted to you. Have summer break next month, July-Aug. Lmk if you've got anything to say or to direct so that I do something about what has been bothering me in the next month. that's the limit? come on grapevine

for me. i spent college studying for grades and 20s making money in a job I don't like, but never got to make the memories I should've with all my friends. I regret doing all of that