Have you been intrigued by Accidents (road/train/air)?

It may come across as weird story, but I think there might me people who relate with it. So, all my childhood as been spent living in a corner house of a busy street. The intersection has seen so many, just too many accidents! There would be a loud bang of metal and everyone would rush to see what happened. As a kid, I would get very excited. A part of me hoping no body is hurt, because blood makes me vomit. Though this excitement had my mom worried, she said it was weird I get happy hearing accidents. Now years later, I have such huge fear of driving. I drive, but very very very cautiously. Been driving for 3 years, no accidents. I avoid driving if I have to really. This must have some name in psychology books. P.S. I was watching air crash videos on Twitter, all focused, which made me realise this.