Firstly, little bit annoyed by your attitude to a bad situation but its is common with the COVID batch. I would say that your resume is above average and at 2 years experience you just started your career. There are boat loads of companies hiring for Java full stack and yes, I can refer if no one has refereed you into TCS. Losing your job sucks but trust me there are other worse situation that one can go through. If suicide is your one-stop solution, then go see a counselor. As for is you are using the word, jokingly, know that there are people out there who ends their life out of desperation.