Healing from Unreciprocated Feelings

I joined TCS a few months ago. It all started in January 2023, when we were in college. Let’s call her Anu. We were part of the same friend group since COVID. After that, in 2023, everything changed because our group disbanded for some reason. She was heartbroken because her two best friends stopped talking to each other. That’s when I stepped in. I couldn’t bear to see her sad, so I asked her what happened. She told me everything. I took her side because I thought she was the victim. We started hanging out all the time and became best friends. Along the way, I developed feelings for her, but she didn’t feel the same. I didn’t want to ruin our friendship. Day by day, I grew more attached to Anu. I even tried to mend things between her and her friends but failed. Until this point, everything was going well (at least for me), but things were about to change after summer vacation.

During the summer break, things got sorted out within our friend group, and I was happy about it. But soon, I realized that Anu was ignoring me. I tried my best to ask her what was wrong, and she said, "I don’t feel the best friend vibe with you anymore." By this point, I had become so attached to her, and hearing this was painful. Afterward, she started manipulating me, saying we were still friends but asking for favors, which I did anyway. I even helped her get a good job at a top MNC in Bangalore. I stopped preparing for my own placements and focused entirely on her. I had over 10 interviews but couldn’t land any of them. Finally, in January 2024, I got placed at TCS in a digital role, and that’s how my college life ended. I had become so emotionally attached to her that I spent every day thinking about her, wasting about 1.5 years.

TCS randomly assigned me to Bangalore, and I knew she was also in Bangalore. At that point, I kept forcing her to talk to me on calls and meet up. By last month, in September, I was mentally exhausted. One night, we drank, and I told her everything—how I felt and what was going on in my mind. There came a moment when I broke down and cried in front of my friends, and even then, I realized she didn’t care at all.

Later, I came to terms with the fact that we were never meant to be friends in the first place. That’s how I got over my one-sided best friend. I hope she does well in life. It’s been a month now, and we haven’t talked, and somehow, I’m okay with that.

Thanks for reading till the end.