I've been in Bangalore for almost three years now. I met someone here, and we’re about to complete a year together. But deep down, I feel like he’s not completely sure about me. Sometimes, his actions hurt me, even though I know it’s unintentional, but it’s painful. We do love each other, but I think I’ve invested too much in him. He is the nicest guy I have ever been. We both have flaws and issues, but he is too rigid to talk about them
On top of that, things at work aren’t going well either. Watching both my personal and professional life fall apart at the same time is terrifying. I don’t want to lose him, but the stress has become overwhelming. I even broke down crying on a call with my parents, which I now regret because I’ve worried them too.
They’re asking me to come back home. They said, “Chor de naukri, yahan aa jao, hum hain yahan, dekh lenge. Aaj nahin toh kal dusri naukri mil jayegi, lekin aise pareshaan mat ho.” How do I tell them it’s not just work? It’s everything. Writing this, I can’t stop crying.