I don't know if it's the company I'm working at, or the projects I'm working on or it's my ADHD but I feel I don't enjoy UI/UX. I feel I lack the trait where one gives tiny attention to details as I have 'chalega / chaltha hai' attitude. I also realized I hate sitting in front of the screen for long hours. I loved physical product design and had to switch to digital product design due to circumstances that were not in control.
I honestly don't understand computers much. I neither enjoy designing app interactions, think about the business aspect of the UI / UX, metrics etc. I sometimes feel like this field isn't for me and I don't know why.
I neither have the privilege's to switch to a new field. I am a slow learner and I admit that I don't have a sharp mind - thanks to ADD. I am 30 YO and I feel like a 22 year old college grad.
I have responsibilities on my shoulders and I can't take a break, be on a sabbatical, or resign. I have 4 YOE on the paper but I feel like I just have 2 YOE.
All I can do now is to learn things I don't enjoy and love the work I do as I have to work and bring bread on the table. I have been telling I will switch since 2-3 years and I am yet to do it. I've noticed that it's all about skills that's stopping me. I feel lethargic and bored to learn something new that I feel is though, boring or something that takes me lot of time to learn. Since the last 4 years, I haven't designed a since mobile app screen and I have been in the comfort zone of just designing for desktops. I feel intimidated by seeing apps screenshots in Mobbin and realizing that UI design is a craft that takes learn to learn, I just procrastinate learning app UI design.
My pay is low to live a comfortable life in a tier 1 city. I need to switch to a different company. I lack UI design skills and hence I lack confidence in myself. I regret wasting my time and at the same time, find the process of learning UI design tough. How do I overcome this?