Rant post about girl and job
Hi, I am in service based company, Graduated in 2022 and did internship in MERN Stack in BYJU's Exam Prep for 10 mos As I had worked in start up , I am having decent knowledge of at least completing the task. I need to switch badly.
Girls were never my friends , no point of GF. Fast forward to now , I am in a project and working on React. There is a girl of same batch and we are working on frontend only. Our dev started in May, and at that time we chit chat for normal queries. After a day or 2 , She started to discuss approach with me, I was ok ( as I was talking to girl no feelings at that time, and was discussing logic). And then slowly the scenario become like she use to call me on teams for any single query , and I in excitement talked to her. I loved her voice had not seen her as our stand up was on teams. I used to help her , and she gives the update like " I am doing this" / " I am doing this , facing some issue, and trying to resolve that " And in each case I was there with her. And then this continued uptill 20 July . I was getting feelings for her , like why a girl is talking to me without even seeing/ knowing. I was interested w/o any reason. I just need a partner to share feelings. And then then due to project requirement , we were asked to come to office. We came on Monday , i helped her normally as we used to discuss with each other on teams. We both saw each other on that day for first time face to face. Her task was going ok, and was supposed to complete on Tuesday, bu by reaching office she use to connect with seniors instead of me and they use to tell her the approach not doing her task. Hence this took full week. I was noticing this from Tuesday to friday (23-26) and we were gradually decreasing our conversation..
Our accomodation is in company's society. I talked to her and her 2 friends in Friday night when I was roaming out. We made plan to go for mall / Iskcon. On Saturday we went outside. For Sunday i asked her to go out she said.......
We can go with team , I agreed and went with team.
I was understanding her intentions.
On Monday her last task was not completed. She texted me at 11:00 I replied her back at 12:25 . As she was doing the same. Then at 3 I saw her tensed and I asked her " all good? " She replied with "😭". I asked her " help ? " She said yes.
We completed the issue till 17:00 and then left for society. We were going towards our towers and in the way she asked to connect again although I was ok and excited and replied yes.
We connected at 19 to 21:30 and I tried to discuss things other than task like her birthday and all. But was not feeling comfortable with her reply, although her reply were not rude. I asked her you never invited for dinner as she was talking with her mates to place order. I was also trying to flirt. Then she said let's meet at 23:00 for walk I said yes . At 23:15 she texted "gn". I was staring the phone from 22:00 to 23:00. She sent this. I replied " wow good " out of sarcasm. She reacted with laughing imogi to my text.
I replied " it's not funny". Can we talk. She asked can we talk tomorrow?
But I texted
"Yarr mujhe LG rha h ki m tumse attached hone lga hu jyda nd I feel ki tumhe nhi h mere se to its better ki hum log limited bat kree.
Mai tumse jyda bat krunga to or jyda attached ho jaunga phir problem hogi mujhe"
She replied with 👍 on second para , and sent
"See.. we are colleagues and we were talking in general way . So .. okay anyway if u say so... Let's keep it that way.."
I am feeling fucked up, I am having feelings for her. Just wanted to spent time with her.
I do not know what to do.
Feels like she was was using me as she knew that I am getting attached to her still she continued after knowing my interest and her's.
I badly want to talk to her. I do not what I will be getting after writing this post.
You shoot your shot and miss sometimes.
Be mentally strong to move on.
In my opinion, don’t date your coworkers. It seems amazing but it does not work out.
I understand she was from your college and you probably feel nostalgic, but time to move on. Don’t talk to her at all, xD.
Let them miss you. If there was something there, they’ll come for you. Otherwise, onto the next one.
💯 also while reading the long post forgot this was a rant and was rooting for the bro but damn this ending.Also bad idea to date coworker within same team.
Don't shit within your team