You being worried of your situation is okay, however you need to work on avoiding suicidal thoughts... There are many people who are jobless and dreaming for a job which pays 25K
I have gotten myself into a situation where there is minimal upside from what I could have had... I dread thinking of next step going wrong
I think you should stop thinking about what could have been and instead solely focus on what can be done next... There are a lot of opportunities but you wouldn't be able to capitalise on them if you are stressed and worried
You can again apply and go for masters ?
Working in software Going for masters in mechanical doesn't make sense as in mechanical.. experience is valued more and starting at 29/30 years from scratch in mech abroad is super risky with low pay and low chance of building career back in India after few years
What makes you think that getting into PM is such a walk in the park?
I'm not gonna lie here but this is what happens when you go with flow. Mechanical guy headed cultural/dance events in engg college where he did ok ok but interested in research and wanted to do masters ended up joining software company and upgraded in some random shit.
Do you see? You have been going no where for long, my friend. Life is too short but gives you many opportunities. Don't lose hope, talk to yourself. Straight. No bullshit, no crap and decide what's realistic for you. Or else, you will cross this road again in 10 years.
Hey I acknowledge that it's random. But I did start research and worked for a while too. Had an admit for MS. But couldn't start it during mid pandemic and needed a job. Did the mistake of not scouting in the same domain and that is when downturn started. Yes this is why I'm being honest with myself and speaking to peers and trying to at least course correct and do well