Day 3 of finding my cutie 🤍

M29 / Never felt love ever in my entire life I’m a M/29 good looking , well educated and in a good paying job. All through my life I’ve never felt loved or been in a proper relationship. Ive been respected , valued but never really “loved “. Ive got a really good friends circle and good parents who love me but this is different . I’ve liked a couple of girls in the past , spoke to them for a while but never took off until a relationship level. I’m also not a person who would shoot a shot at every girl just to be in a relationship . Currently I feel really desperate to be loved . I love myself but there’s a constant desire to be loved by someone . sometimes even a small act of affection from opposite gender makes me wonder if it’s love . People would know constantly ask me why I’m single even after being a well qualified bachelor which hurts even more. Looking for some genuine advice how to get over this feeling or if this feeling is valid .

I know a special person who make my life in hard times and dull times so beautiful we just met on online platforms and we become frinds days gone faster now we are not just online friends we become so closer and i fallen love with that person more than 5 times still loving that person without knowingly myself and then I understand that person told to me in one time " we are more than friends and more than lovers " and now I started realising what that person told and we both made a promises together for our life and now I trying full fill the promise so soon . I don't know why I've always think about that person is that person safe or not happy or sad . At one stage without knowingly I hurt her so much after that the person forgive me and understand inner child in my self .now no more hurting we are going to next stage to upgrade our self but I missing those old days with that person really without that person I can't stand again after having very down fall in my past life I think everyone should have like kinda this special person in their life . GUYS IF U HAVE THAT PERSON DON'T MISS THEM BECOZ THEY ARE MORE VALUABLE THAN GOLD OR DIAMOND.

Few days back I shared the issues with my love marriage: https://share.gvine.app/MqNSaoaojCmwsXbB7 Lot of love and support from you people. So finally the day is near. Not much change in my family’s stand! Few conversation where they started becoming supportive of me but that came along with the question of postponing the marriage. Again after every support, their was push to not do the marriage. You will regret later, she is not good etc etc. My mom, today she even asked that the girl need to leave her well paying job! I am feeling so so ashamed of all this happening around. I am feeling guilty for both the family. I am feeling guilty that I should not have carry forwarded the relationship. Over these, I have started realising that how societal powers can make a human sacrifice their own self. If I choose to not marry(Assumption) how I am going to sacrifice myself only for my mother’s happiness. Idk what happiness she will get by marrying me to someone of her choice. I am sure of all the marriages that are happening around, more than half of it must be broken or shallow marriage. I am greatful to have friends who are around, who are coming to attend marriage and are supporting me. I am also greatful to girl’s family. They are supporting the relationship! Plz share your nlessing for us! Will share a pic from marriage!

I always looked at her and felt she is so beautiful, charismatic, and had an infectious smile. Looking at her made me smile broo. Chapter 1 One day I decided to ask her out. I messaged her and our conversation grew then she spilled out that she also liked me a lot. And she was glad that I asked her out. Chapter 2 She had studied in an all girls school and she had a stereotype about boys that they are all stupid and bad. And girls and boys should never be together. I was fine because atleast she liked me 😂. One fine day she asked me to break up with my brosss. I asked her why? She said your friends are all playboys and I don't like the way they look at me. (Disclaimer: My bros are really nicest guys and I have known them since childhood they are the best gentlemen). We had an argument which didn't end on a good note. Chapter 3 I left to a new state for my Job. After I reached there she messaged me that we can't talk and we have to stop whatever we had. I got anxious and worried and spent my 5 months not being able to contact her. I got into depression. Then me being restless on my birthday I came back to my hometown. At exactly 11:59PM when my bday was going to end she messaged me "Happy Birthday". I was so happy to see her message. Chapter 4 We started talking and she said that she is leaving to Canada for her higher studies. I was happy for her but at the same time I was sad. I didn't want to see her go. We both cried and stayed on call till morning watching each other sleep. Chapter 5: She reached Canada and she completed her formalities and procedures. We talked for few more days but then eventually she started giving me hints that she is not interested. Then one day she abruptly messaged me and said we can't talk and we have to end everything. I cried the whole night, because there was no way for me to contact her and she had blocked me. Chapter 6: It has been 1 yr to that day. Somehow I have gone numb. I'm slowly forgetting her.

Write about a time you made someone feel very nice. Hopefully it can be a collection of ideas that others can take forward. If somehow a few people do something nice as a result, that would be powerful. To start with an example: Bought a laptop for my grandfather because he wanted to continue working post 60. Helped him learn Excel, Gmail, Chrome browsing over many days. He really picked it up, and works as a consultant for new companies in the industry he worked all his life.

The past year has been the best! I'm engaged to my long-term partner, making the first person I loved, my last. I'm working in my dream company and dream role I've finally moved out and have a healthy distance from my controlling family I wish I could say all of the above but you know what they say "You plan. God laughs' My life has become a joke. After years and years of nurturing my relationship and working on myself, I've achieved nothing personally or professionally. Being an overthinker, I'd detail everything from plan 'A' to plan 'Z' to ensure my dreams come true. I had an extraordinarily amazing relationship but when it came down to marriage he didn't have time to even think about it. I have a brilliant resume filled with distinction grades, extracurriculars, and leadership roles, and yet I couldn't score an interview let alone be shortlisted for any role I wanted. With no choice, I'm stuck in a job that I absolutely hate and have no interest in! And finally, after 26 years of living with my family and growing up to be a responsible adult and doing everything and more, they ask me, they still think the worst of me, call me names, hardly acknowledge my presence, and make me feel guilty for barely living my life. I'm honestly so emotionally drained and feel like my whole life has been a struggle, hoping for things to get better someday. But all I feel is stuck. Everyone around me is moving on with their lives - getting married, moving to a new city/country, getting roles in dream companies and I'm nowhere close to anything I want. Being a practical and logical person I would usually not take advice from random strangers on the internet but I'm keeping an open mind and I'd love to hear your thoughts on my depressing life! 💔 People below 25 yrs don't bother commenting, unless you want to start a crowd fund for my therapy. P.S. The last para is a joke. Don't come at me about it in the comment section. I do need therapy though, but can't afford it. Not from an experienced psychologist at least.

A friend of mine complemented me today, Felt unusually great Gentle reminder: sweet complements to other won't hurt

These are my thoughts that go through my head as I work towards a healthy and happy life. I wrote them down to never forget them, and come back to them whenever I lose sight. I am sharing this here in hopes that this might help someone else too, as a lot of us are going through something or the other since we got into adulthood. This is written in first person, so read it as something you are telling yourself :) ---------------------------------------------- It happened, it's in the past. There is nothing that I can do to change it. I can only learn and grow from my mistakes, from the wrongs that happened to me. I can change where I am, how I am and how I live my life. I have that power, and no one can take that away from me. . This time would never come back. If I don't like how my life is today, my standing, then I need to work on changing it. I need to ponder on the question "Do I want to be at this same place a few months down the road?" Yes, I am talking about months and not years, because if I don't like where I am today, I shouldn't be liking it ever, and it doesn't have to take a long time for me to realise this. . I won't ever have everything figured out, such is the nature of life. It's not a script; instead it is unscripted and spontaneous. There would always be something new, something that would demand my attention, something that is unfamiliar and uncertain, and I have to learn to live in the flow of it all. . I don't know where I am going, what will happen, what life has in store for me. I don't know anything, but isn't that beautiful? That this is that mysterious book, whose pages turn with time. But at the same time it isn't a mystery at all because what would happen to me would be the result of my work and efforts, at least to some extent, to the extent where things are under my control. . And if something went out of control in the past, till when should I punish myself over it? Till when should I keep doubting myself, keep being afraid? I am wiser now, and my future self would be too. I need to have faith in myself and believe that I am going to make the right decisions. I have a sensible head on me; I am intelligent, and aware. . Also, what is going to happen is unknown, uncertain, so why do I keep forgetting my own words? That I am not afraid of failing, rather I am afraid of not trying. Let's never forget it ever again. Let's do this life right, let me do right by myself. Let me live this life to the fullest. Let me gift myself the life I would be proud of having lived when I take my final breath and leave this world behind. Let me be present. Let me do it all and more. Let me squeeze life in the tightest of hugs that I could ever give, and not be the first one to let go. Let life let go of me when it's time. So until then, let's do this zindagi!

How to find true love? Need genuine suggestions. Please help me