Hate my life a rant !!

So I have made a similar post on grapevine before but doing it again because I have nothing else to do. Currently working in one of the big 4 passed out from a circuital branch in newer IIT. Have been dealing with anxiety since my jee preparation days . On meds since then . Fucked up my college life . Didn’t make any good friends . Didn’t study for placement as I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do. Now working here feels like hell. Work starts at 11 and keep on going till 9 sometimes more than that . Thinking of doing a switch but fucked up interviews . Thought I should restart my life gave gre but didn’t get good marks . Feel like a failure . I cry a lot . Today thought I will do something productive but just kept crying . Called my father but he said why do I keep coming back to him with a sad face . Told him to fuck off and cut the call. Haven’t been to gym in a month cause my work doesn’t give time and I am too tired to wake up early . I am just reduced to my room sometimes I feel I should just jump from the balcony and end everything but I know I am coward cannot do that. Has anyone ever went through the same ? Will it get any better ? And yes I am taking therapy so no need to recommend that . Rant over 😞