Need some direction and lot of motivation

Was reading through the AMA of Juleo founder and I realised I wanted to get on this path for so long (startup journey), but been 2 years now and still working for someone 9 to 9 I also realized I fear extensive, unpredictable work Like data, paperwork, running to government offices, running behind investors, people's problems. I'm sure I would manage all of these perfectly, figure out everything. But the initial itch, don't know what to call it How do I break from this pattern? I don't want to die mediocre or without doing (atleast trying) something I wil enjoy