Practical way to get out of the depression.

I woke up with a notification that started with “Hope you had a great weekend. Unfortunately…” I didn’t have the courage to open the entire mail. I knew what it was. A little context here, i have been unemployed for the last 5 months. I got laid off from my first job with not even an year of work experience. We all know how bad the market condition is, and how harsh it is for freshers. Me being the optimistic person that i am, ignored all these setbacks and began my hunt for my next dream job. With the help of my friends, I started preparing for interviews. I was lucky enough to get shortlisted for few good companies. But somehow or the other things always went south and i ended up without an offer. I made sure to not get disheartened and keep trying my best with a positive attitude. And then i interviewed with this one company, that perfectly aligned with me. All my interviews went well and made it till the final round. Now it was a call from the leadership. I strongly believed that this is my shot. After months of feeling stuck, I thought this is going to be my moment of relief. Even though this journey was hard i made sure to enjoy every bit of it. But now here i am with another rejection mail. I am now questioning my entire belief system. And not sure what to do next. Any advice/suggestions are welcome :)

TW: Depression It is nearing a decade since I fell into clinical depression (I have doctor's diagnosis) and I had to do a lot of work in those years to be able to do even the daily tasks - brushing my teeth, having a bath, eating food, drinking water, having a clean room, etc. Having a career where I am learning and making my mark, living my life, these are far fetched dreams when compared to these small things. And the truth is, I have come far. I have grown so much. When I look back at my journey, I am proud of myself for not giving up on myself, even when 95% of the time I had to do it all alone. Over the years so many things have happened, so many things piled on me, adding to the emotional burden, making me hit rock bottom all the time. I am honestly surprised with how much I have seen and went through in such a short lifespan. I have built myself up enough that I could at least have a normal daily routine even when I was severely struggling emotionally. And never did I think that there would come a day when I would see myself struggle with the daily tasks. I knew that I would struggle, but not with this. A few days ago, something happened, something that's the root cause of my mental illness. The adult me is already over it, but the child inside me was shook. I didn't realise it until today when I started to take notice of how I was being. I was struggling to even drink water that was not even a foot away from me, I had been eating only once a day, haven't cleaned my room in days, not working on my office tasks, literally doing nothing, not even going out of my room. I never thought my trauma would get triggered like this and I would again be in the same space as I was in the initial days of my depression. I know I will bring myself out again, I always have, always will. It just made me sad that I somehow don't seem to get a break from negative things happening in my life.

I'm a 25yo guy, currently working as a software engineer, earlier I used to enjoy being alone but from sometime I think I need someone to talk to share my day with and listen to theirs. I don't know whether to say this here or not, that I have never dated anyone before and don't believe in dating apps either, and not had much interaction with women as well, but I respect them in every possible way, and would like to have one as a good friend. Please DM if you feel the same and would genuinely be interested in connecting as a friend. Thanks!.

I met my girlfriend during college, 5 years ago. We were so much in love. I remember we used to go on dates to picnics, museums and the works. I spent and invested a lot of money and time in this relationship. I feel that my life is purposeless now that she has left me. Her father is a very high ranking government official. He has gotten marriage proposals from very well endowed political connections. Apparently some ex-CM's son is out in the marriage market looking. I don't know why but I still thought we would make it. Like, nothing can come between us. She texted me last night that she was leaving me because I only make 14LPA. My hands are still trembling. I want to go be the best version of myself and simultaneously think that the train tracks are looking comfy to sleep on.

Same as question, I don't have a love life so girlfriend issue is not here in depression XD I want to improve myself and get more successful and be a bit happy about myself. I have major points like I don't have high package Family depends on me Grinding leetcode but not getting any interview calls One question at the end ? Does it get better ?

I have been a little caught up with numerous things in my life lately and have finally found some free time to open up myself to new experiences. I had a wishlist of shows and movies that I wanted to watch but as soon as I start watching them, I get bored and feel like turning it off. No, its not the content No, its not the genre No, its not the actors No, its not the taste either This is pretty ironic as considering the fact that I have spent a fair share of my youth chasing academics and career, my heart had always craved for life experiences. I had to let go of the woman I loved simply because I was too focussed on my JEE. I wont be able to forgive myself for that EVER. It almost felt like I had lost a limb, without which , I would be rendered disfunctional. Thats a separate story tho. Nothing excites me (yep nothing) Nothing amuses me Nothing feels lively I have no clue where my life is headed I understand that as we age, our triggers of happiness change. I have put concious efforts into knowing what those new triggers are. But I cant find any plausible sources of happiness. I am performing pretty well with my career. Even got a double digit hike. But didnt feel that kick of joy. Have I approached a dead end?

Holi hai? Diwali hai? So what, nothing to enjoy. Lets spend the day laying on the bed, watching stuff over phone. Feeling less and less disconnected with friends, to the point where I feel I don't even have friends. College friends are based in another city. Didn't even try to make friends at workplace. Stuck alone in my homecity as past 6 years I was based somewhere else completing my grad and preparing for jee. Prior to that focused a lot on studies. So had little to no interaction with people during academics. And now when I have time and money to spend, there is noone with whom I can have fun with.

I think I'm losing my mind. I'm a 32-year-old guy in tech, graduated from IIIT Delhi, earning 78L annually, but I feel like I'm fooling everyone, including myself. It's as if I'm constantly waiting for someone to burst into the office and shout, "Hey, fraud! We've finally figured out you're actually useless!" I know it sounds like I'm humble-bragging, but trust me, I'm not. This feeling is eating me alive. Seven years ago, I started as a regular software engineer. Somehow, I kept getting promoted. Now I'm leading a team of 15 people, handling critical projects, and sitting in meetings with the higher-ups. But every time I'm in those meetings, I feel like a kid wearing his dad's oversized suit, pretending to be an adult. I work my ass off - late nights, weekends, you name it. But I always feel like I'm barely keeping my head above water. When my team comes to me with problems, I'm secretly panicking, thinking, "Why are you asking me? I'm as clueless as you!" The worst part? Everyone around me seems to think I'm some kind of wunderkind. My boss is always praising me in front of others. My team looks up to me. Even my parents are bragging about me to all our relatives. But inside, I'm constantly terrified that I'll make one tiny mistake and everyone will realize I'm a fraud. I see my college batchmates on LinkedIn, and they all seem so confident and successful. Meanwhile, I'm here, earning more than I ever thought I would, but feeling like I don't deserve any of it. I can't even enjoy my success. I bought a nice house last year, but instead of feeling proud, I keep thinking, "What if they fire me tomorrow? How will I pay for this?" It's like I'm waiting for everything to come crashing down. I know it's ridiculous to complain about a high-paying job when so many people are struggling. But this constant fear of being "found out" is driving me insane. I can't even talk to my friends about it because they'll probably think I'm just showing off. Has anyone else felt like this? How do you deal with feeling like a fraud when everyone thinks you're successful? Is this just part of adult life that no one talks about? This is what eats me alive during weekends, realised it's Friday and panic typed this here

I earn enough. Here are my problems: 1. Don’t have friends who I can talk to 2. Dating life is weird and complicated (can’t find someone I’m truly happy with) 3. Don’t enjoy living in blr 4. Don’t have tight bond with siblings or parents Suggest me some ways in which I can improve. Please only suggest things that worked for you.