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Confused and exhausted

I have a total of about 7 years of work experience, 2 years before MBA and 5 years after. The chunk of my experience is with an ecommerce startup. I've had at least three different role changes here and 10+ manager changes. I've worked my ass off in every role but with a constant feeling that it wasn't enough. I suspect a part of this is the imposters syndrome and the other part is the hustle culture that the company promotes. You're expected to be always on the go and irrespective of the pace you're at, it's never enough. I have been with this company for over 4 years and my ESOPs are 100% vested. I have been sitting on this very strong need of wanting to move on from here. The constant uncertainty + the layoffs I've seen is an added motivation. The company is changing its strategy every quarter and no one seems to know what they're doing. At this point people are only working for the optics and because losing a job in this market could mean months of unemployment. I want to move out but feel confused about what my skill set is. In a startup you end up doing just about everything. You become a generalist and that's making me feel like I lack depth. I'm low on confidence, the job market is unforgiving and I feel absolutely stuck right now. I'm unrepaid compared to my peers and that's a constant thought in my head. I'm currently unmarried with no dependents so the money is not an issue from sufficiency pov, it's more about being paid per the market standards. I'm not sure how to get out of this limbo and it's eating at me every second.

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TLDR: Feeling extremely lost

Current state - I work as a PM intern at a startup. We shipped a major release few months back and since then I barely have any work. It's an ops heavy startup, so the work we do is just supplementary and I'm not making a huge impact anymore. I'm one of the select remote workers here and I've been with the org for the last 2 yrs, working parallelly alongside my college. Initially the work was exciting but now it has died down. The org has a okayish culture. There's no downside but limited upside as well. Pay is pretty good for me (considering I work <2hrs/week) but below average for fulltimers. A little context - I'm pursuing an integrated(5yr) degree from a reputed B-school in Mumbai and I'll be graduating coming July. The placement cycle will start soon but I'm extremely unsure of what I want to go ahead with. I have varied interest. I like to tinker and play around with things. I've built successful social media pages & YT channels in the past. I've freelanced in digital marketing, web development and made decent money out of it. I've built chrome extensions and apps with several thousand users. I feel like I also have interest in web3, strategy, founders office and consulting roles. Few months back, I got an offer from a DeFi company, however they receded it once they realised I still have more than a year left to graduate. The confusion - I feel like I should leave my current org as there's no more learning here. However, I don't know in which direction should I proceed after that. The only thing I'm sure of is I'm not built for big corporates. I enjoy working with high ownership and small sized startups seem like the only option. I have 8 months of college left and I'll have to start looking for jobs within next 1-2months. (continued in comments)