Just wanted to write

I have never had any friends except in my college. Everywhere I was the most silent person. Honestly I try to socialize and get one friend always but as soon as someone else comes then they start making fun of me and slowly I start getting alone again. While they continue to grow their friendship. This has followed me everywhere - in school, in college and now present. I am just surprised that why am I always able to secure one friend and then lose only when someone else joins. Why do always they make fun of me only. If they had balanced behaviour like making fun of the other in our trio then maybe I might not have felt alienated. Never had any girl to talk as well. It simply hurts man as we are human beings "Social Animals". It's our genuine habit to socialise. But I am always left rendered alone. No one celebrates my birthday. You know out of these years there had been only one time when I was called in a birthday party that was when I was in 4th standard. Even my roommates never included me in their birthday party. Hello was from my child school days only. Like he once himself told me that he and his friends never considered me for inviting into birthday party as they felt uncomfortable as they were not toppers. I had not asked for any explanation nothing. Man this just kind of brought me to reality. In my professional world also this continues. No one celebrates my birthday though they cut cakes of each other in office. Also no one asks me for party as well. I am too much alone and alienated. I just don't know how will I get out of it.