The nagging fear of parents' going away

Yesterday, mom had fast for Haritalika Teej (like Karwa chauth but for 36 hours, and no water) Around 10 -11 pm, she didn't feel well. Couldn't sleep because of severe headache. She is also diabetic

But wouldn't break the fast because oh what if!

She did eventually fall asleep, but I was up all night thinking of inevitable. Stupid me saw a reel on Instagram where they talk about the silence at home when she is not there.

The weighing feeling of not having done enough for this one woman who gave everything to me.