Not sure about life

Sorry if it feels like a vent but better be this than nothing else. This has been a slow year for me, I look everywhere and people are doing better than me. Being a fresher who had his offer revoked was already a hard blow but I somehow got a job at an MNC but even at such a low salary I'm being overworked and giving them more output than they deserve. I'm slowly heading through a burnout or might be going through one and it's not good when I'm supposed to be so active learning new stuff but here I'm just churning out wheat like a slave. But this might not be a cry for help,I just wanna make myself aware of where I am and it's so much more than just these money-hungry sharks who hired us talking abt ethics that you should not be working for money but cause you can and enjoy. Ig I need steps to uplift myself I'll be back again tomorrow with more questions than these rants.

I am 23M working in a well renowned Fintech startup. Have got what I have dreamed of in college like high ownership, good pay and other similar things. But lately realized that I can't do these things for my majority of life. Although I enjoy my work but still feeling lonely and aimless. Previous to September it was remote but now they have made it hybrid and I have to reallocate to Gurgaon and now I am feeling more lonely and aimless in life. Have tried travelling and other stuffs inorder to find interest in life but nothing excites me.

I can't seem to relate to much of the non-FAANG junta out there. I mean I have a cushy job with probably 0.1% pay of all SWEs(pretty much like all of us do). But these cookie-cutter roles have been taking a mental toll on me. Like I am getting paid but I feel a little purpose-less. What am I gunning for in this life? All my life I wanted to go to a good college to get into a good company. In college I wanted to get a good codeforces rank so that I could get into FAANG. Now that I am in FAANG I have nothing to look forward to. Any of you all feeling this way? Because I don't see myself offer-shopping and feeling much happy about that either.

Currently working in a startup and contributing in data science projects. Learning is good but a lot of time goes down in meetings and discussions and I have to do late night work. Everyday starts to feel like the same and I am not able to get time for extra learning to enhance my knowledge and tech stack. Also thinking of company change but most of them need 3-4 years exp to the data science team. 😭

Want to get some perspective here because I think it’d be valuable to hear about other people’s experiences. This job at Google has completely destroyed my confidence and I feel so paranoid about shipping anything now. I have made some mistakes but I have always caught them in staging or working drafts. Here is what my manager has said to me: - I lack attention to detail. - I do not have drive. - I do not have any ambition. And the reason I have been told this is because: I messed up a flow that the Lead PM had come up with in the first place. Then the Lead PM flips back on me and says that it would be "an embarrassment" to ship this. I find myself immersed in a constant cycle of spending hours each day reviewing work, gripped by the fear of facing criticism or even the prospect of being fired. Despite investing significant time and effort, it seems that the only feedback I receive is overwhelmingly negative. It has reached a point where I question myself and wonder if I should have not been here at all. This toxic work environment is undeniably draining, and I'm left grappling with insane anxiety. Has anyone else faced this?

I earn a decent living ~32LPA as a Software Engineer. I really enjoy my work and it is always a joy working with smart people around you. I sometimes wonder if I didn't exist would it matter in the world. At work, I come up with great ideas and insights which my peers appreciate and support, but there hasn't been one thing that they took seriously and moved ahead with. My peers around me constantly belittle me, some unprofessional jokes about my competence and intellect, even though I am actually good at what I do and more. The backhanded compliments and sarcastic replies in front of other people in my company makes me sad beyond belief. It is almost like I give so much of time to this company and although everyone cares about the work I do but no one cares about me. My colleagues constantly try to one-up themselves by bullying juniors and laughing in their glass-walled conference walls. Incidents like these make me want to give up on work. I think the mix of giving all of myself at work(intensity and long hours), constant berating on my competence and the time I spend away from my family and "real" friends(not these fake work colleagues) makes me depressed as fuck. I am now understanding that you can never be happy in life because you can never have all that you want. You will give up something for the other. You think making more money will make you happier but you will just end up losing your sanity.

I'm feeling really stuck and frustrated at work lately. Despite putting in my best efforts and consistently performing well, it seems like my manager is feeling threatened by my progress. He’s been rejecting my ideas and work without even reviewing them, and calling me out in meetings for not completing non-priority tasks. The environment has become really toxic and it's taking a toll on me. Has anyone experienced something similar? How did you handle it? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

I hate working 9 to 5. I simply hate it. I loathe it. I worked so hard all my effing life to get here and I hate it. I learnt DP and what not. It’s been 1.5 years since I started working full time as a software engineer and it just keeps getting worse. I make upwards of 15 lpa. It’s not that I have a bad work environment, it’s great. It’s just that I feel absolutely rotten working a 9 to 5 as a software engineer. Ideally, I would like to own a small business of my own. Despite watching hours of content on how to do that, I haven’t been able to come up with anything that seems like it’s gonna work, you know… Thinking of doing an MBA but that’s BS too, right? It feels like very soon I’m just gonna quit and be broke. 🤷🏼‍♀️ It feels like my life is over at 23. Kill me now. My question to you is first, am I alone?, second, can I help you in your business in any possible way?, third, should I do an MBA?

I've done everything I can in my current role at my current company. Currently working with the worst manager one can get and still thriving in my role. I feel like an outsider in my own team. Heck, I've even solved problems beyond my pay grade. But the first moment I want to put myself and my career first and all I hear is that I'm too young to think about these things. Is this how it's going to be?

Hey guys! I have been working as a Business Analyst for Conduent for the past 2.5 years. I'm still at the same CTC they hired me on and everytime I brought up the topic to increase my compensation etc, my manager just tells me we are looking into it and it is because of budget issues. The excuses don't stop. its not like other people who joined with me aren't promoted. they did get a 20-30% raise. Can someone suggest me on how do I deal with this situation? Should I look for another job? or should I continue to fight here for the compensation I do deserve ?