Is it a mental illness?

Grapeviners, can you, with all honesty convince a non-believer like me into getting married and having children. If you do, my parents will send a million blessings your way. About me: - Female, 28 - mostly introverted, very selectively extroverted - single and normally attractive - Jinxed when it comes to relationships - Financially independent, Net worth: 1 cr - not bragging, but I'm decently intellectual and I can have smart conversations My reason to resist marriage is: I'm scared it won't work out and will cause bigger problems than being single. Have seen too many unhappy marriages in family and friends. Dating scenes in recent times have only made things even more unimpressive.

I have been in this industry for 4 years now and there is not a single day that i hated this place any less. Today 9th August 2023 i am all alone in my room thinking to myself about what’s the point of this? I have no life i am all alone and tbh i have no real friends. A few of them that i do have are so far away from me busy in their life. No love life no social life. At 27 i feel wasted, done, finished let me clarify not in a suicidal way. I just feel exhausted my body is breaking down by the day i feel. I am just broken at this point and feel like quitting this profession altogether. I just don’t feel happy. The more i work the more irritated and frustrated i get. To top all that i have no one to share my emotions with here. Call it whatever you may wanna call a cry for help, a rant or nonsense. I am at that point where every morning feels like punishment. Every night that i go to bed i try to stay positive but i am not able to. I just hate everything. I am not a lazy man i work for 10-12 hours everyday and i think now that has finally got to me as i feel finished. I don’t know if anyone will read it or not i just wanted to reach out to people or anyone who feels like me. Broken tired and just done with everything.

I haven't been doing mentally well since I don't know when. I've been extremely self critical about myself to the extent that it has negatively affected my relationship with loved ones. I think I have ADHD as I strongly feel I have the symptoms that are described in YouTube or in any article online. To make matters worse, I am not doing well in terms of my career, my finances have taken a hit, have gained 12+ kilos since a year, unable to focus on work and upskilling and I have anger issues. I am 30 YO and I feel my life is turning into a disaster. Can someone please recommend therapists in Bangalore to whom I can talk face to face? I sometimes feel I'm seeking sympathy but in reality, I just need help. There is a lot of guilt, regret and self hatred rooted deep inside me which has wrecked my confidence, self love, compassion which has started to affect others. So if you guys know anyone, please let me know.

I never had a gf in my life. Loved lot of girls, asked 2 but was rejected. Still looking for someone, although nothing solid yet. But now I have grown paranoid of relationships. Now I don't believe if someone will love me back. If I do find someone who shows interest, I feel like they will leave me eventually so I don't go ahead. I am stuck in a catch 22 situation, I cannot trust someone but I also need someone. I have tried telling myself that I don't need anyone, I should focus on my goals and dreams. And I do focus, but then it comes back to me. I get lovesick and I can't go on. I exercise daily, work on daily tasks, practise for interview as I am planning to switch, play badminton with friends. And still when the day ends, I feel need to hold hands with someone. Don't misunderstand this for loneliness, I love being alone and I prefer to be that most of the time. When I want to have some company, i go eat, play with friends. I have tried finding different cures for this feeling, like exercise, games, friends but nothing has worked out yet. It's not even sadness, it's just empty void. How do you get rid of this emotion?

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This is the first time I am gonna ask something related to my personal life on grapevine bczz i know my fellow GRAPEVINERS are either went through it , going through it or will gonna experience it . Nowadays the bars for Getting a compatible partner is so high that most of the relationships and marriages aren't even working out . people who are well settled are even seperating from their partner due to many issues , i am just 22 but it's natural to crave for someone's presence in your life but seeing around the breaks ups and divorces are on a rise due to this busy life , hook up culture , hypergamy etc . It makes me worried that will i actually able to get someone good in my life , i know no one is perfect but what if I'll miss the opportunity to get someone good or what if any toxic person comes who will make life a hell. Many of my friends are in relationship and even those who aren't even sure about their lives and career and the first thing that comes in my mind after watching them is - "Arre iski bhi hai🙂" , Right now I am focused on my career but these thoughts strike in my mind from time to time

I'll go first - Shut laptop, get in comfy clothes and watch Amar Singh Chamkila! Imtiaz Ali after 4 years!!