Trauma bonding 👉👈

Hello I am a 26 years old female who works in a IT company, but meanwhile I am stuck with my life neither my job nor my relationship is going well, I am actually not so "relationship" type i am kinda marriage type of person, ❤️ I love someone who is from middle class and I am ready to settle if he is earning 40k even but what matters is love and understanding of both of person, Recently I am facing issues in my relationship like he is ready to leave me if the situation is not in future, and while I am not getting any future security from him i really feel anxious and getting panic attacks each day, I am not able to sleep properly Meanwhile, I am saying no to projects in my company and I am not showing any willingness to work further, honestly no body is there to guide me what should I do, my mom she supports me but I am unable to sleep properly in night and each and everyday I am crying and crying, not eating properly, i really need ur suggestion guys Please if anyone can suggest me or anything i should know i will be very grateful.........

I was really hoping for good hike. I worked really hard. With 4 Rating, i got only 4% hike. I have lot of financial issues and i waited for yearly hike. Its not even a year hike, it got delayed for 4 months. What should I do? If I had jumped to another company, I would have got atleast 20-30% hike. Why this CEO gets paid more when employees just get hike like this? I really disappointed with this company after CEO arrival. I am going to search new jobs because cts will be doomed under this CEO one day. Doing Mass Drives, Creating New bases does not make us financially well Mr. CEO. THERE IS A THING CALLED KARMA

THE POSITIVE SIDE: Sometimes you kinda eventually develop a soft corner for your therapist (especially if they belong to the opposite gender) due to the following pivotal reasons: 1. They are perhaps the only person you have who "listens" to you and helps you de-tanglenhour thoughts 2. Their tone is pacifying and welcoming. 3. Sometimes when you are venting out, you logical side of the brain takes the back seat and your emotions take over. During such conditions, you end up trusting someone if they are listening to you with an active interest. BUT BUT BUT ! THE APPARENT DARK SIDE: 1. They do all the sweet talk for money. While it may seem like a hard pill to swollow, its just like any other medical profession like cardiologist or radiologist, who wouldnt even look at you if you dont have money. 2. They will obviously judge you and talk about you to their close colleagues or intimate friends. 3. They would want you to BE SAD so that they can get paid. Infact my therapist once clearly said that we only take 20% accountability for everything when I was thanking her (indirectly hinting that if something goes wrong its on me and if something goes right its also on me) Thanks to my therapist I dont even trust my shadow anymore.

(I know Osho type question hai but just curious)

So I might get some hate for this. I know this is weakness and the feedback I've gotten is toughen up. But I've never known how. Is there anyone else whose body and mind had accepted that they're not going to amount to anything but fought their way through it? Can you tell me your story? Or give me any book suggestions?

You will solve all questions in OA, yet still have to depend on luck to get the interview call. Someone who doesn't know how to traverse an array cracks 12 lpa. Some girls enjoy 3 years of B. Tech, no skills, no internships, no GitHub, no experience yet still crack 12+ lpa, yet hardworking girls who grind straight for 3 years won't even get shortlisted for OA. You drop a hall of shame interview, yet there is still a chance that you might get the offer. Randomly shortlisting students for OA. Nowadays some companies are asking DP/graph/tree questions in OA for a 4/8 lpa packages??!!!!! Some companies prefer incompetent female candidates over skilled male/female candidates, and the list goes on. It feels like 70% Luck and 30% hard work and skill. Why is it like that??? What actually happens behind the scenes amongst the interviewers and peeps from the HR department?? How do you actually end up choosing someone with 0 skills and 0 experience over a skilled and experienced candidate??