I've been feeling the same way? I'm not a techie, but in college I saw how much techies earn and accidentally started working in the field! I feel the exact same way, the work is challenging, work load is tolerable, the pay is good, and I have a huge responsibility that I keep questioning... Not to mention in my case, I am basically a one person department and don't have anyone to rely on... It feels like all I do is rely on my experience and wits which is absolutely miniscule! I feel like my contributions have dropped significantly and I'm afraid that'll be noticed and that also makes me anxious... Work in general makes me anxious, I hate charging people for my services cause I feel like I'm a sham
In any case, I am a HUGE arts, culture, and history fan! I sometimes want to drop everything and just walk out into the streets and protest against something like in my student days... Or maybe start some kind of a handicrafts business or something where I export Indian cultural handicrafts?
I mean, I know this is not helpful AT ALL, but... I don't know, your post really really spoke to me