Hate my life a rant !!
So I have made a similar post on grapevine before but doing it again because I have nothing else to do. Currently working in one of the big 4 passed out from a circuital branch in newer IIT. Have been dealing with anxiety since my jee preparation days . On meds since then . Fucked up my college life . Didn’t make any good friends . Didn’t study for placement as I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do. Now working here feels like hell. Work starts at 11 and keep on going till 9 sometimes more than that . Thinking of doing a switch but fucked up interviews . Thought I should restart my life gave gre but didn’t get good marks . Feel like a failure . I cry a lot . Today thought I will do something productive but just kept crying . Called my father but he said why do I keep coming back to him with a sad face . Told him to fuck off and cut the call. Haven’t been to gym in a month cause my work doesn’t give time and I am too tired to wake up early . I am just reduced to my room sometimes I feel I should just jump from the balcony and end everything but I know I am coward cannot do that.
Has anyone ever went through the same ? Will it get any better ? And yes I am taking therapy so no need to recommend that . Rant over 😞
Ei chomu. You're more than your mental health issues. You are a living breathing Marvel and you ain't gonna piss it away just because shit is bad right now. I'm on meds too but I also used the doc to talk to get away from the crap. Please seek out a good therapist and get working with him or you'll spiral harder.
Yeah working on it but I feel like everyday is a new low for me . Especially weekends
Dude I feel the same. Weekends are this empty void. I'm thinking to seek therapy so let's see where it goes!