I felt the same too at one of the big4.
Please prioritise your health. I quit big 4 and now I'm on a break.
It's a highly competitive environment. I remember once I put a section in column D instead of B, once I marked PY stamp in a different colour than what was told to me, and such petty things - and if I would do these things incorrectly, they would lash out on me. My friend's father was hospitalized and she was sitting outside and was working.
No matter what happens in life, if it's the busy season going on,, they would not let us take leaves.
and once the busy season is over, they would put us in the busy season of a different team
so out of 12 months, for around 8-9 months we're working in the busy season of one or the other team and basically we used to work all day all night.
I couldn't enjoy my real brother's wedding peacefully as I knew once I'm back, my email would be flooded.
And that's what happened, when I came back, my email was flooded with things like why haven't you done this, you cannot take leaves etc etc.
If I would raise any concern in the team, they would start threatening me or they would just say it's all professional nothing personal.
I feel corporates is not for me i guess