Losing my motivation

Holy shit my guy this is your problem?

I understand your struggle, it's emotionally draining to give your all when you know a managed exit is coming. This situation would test anyone's motivation.

Let's consider what's driving your hesitation to coast:

1. Despite having financial security, our work often forms a core part of who we are. Disengaging might feel like letting go of that.

2. Kids learn not just from what we say, but what we do. The question is, what lesson do you want to teach them? Sometimes it's about hardwork, but it could also be about knowing when to prioritize wellbeing.

3. Working diligently until the end might be about staying true to your own values, regardless of external circumstances.

However, there might be a middle path. Could you maintain professional standards during work hours while scaling back the extra studying and 10-hour days?

This would protect your reputation and demonstrate balance to your kids, while giving you space to process this transition and perhaps explore what's next.

Are you married? Focus on family, vacation and other life aspects. You seem to be winning in the career aspect

Privileged world problems, damn! As chandler would say - "Oh no, two women love me. My wallet's too small for my 50s and my diamond shoes are too tight"