Need motivation to be consistent

Hey All, I am writing this to express how I am feeling since last 1 year now. This post will be a bit lengthy but I would be grateful if anyone could help me even a bit. I moved into a new company 1year back and due to bad work environment I left. I took a months break and joined a new company now. I have a total 5 years of work experience, my salary is extremely good. ( I don’t worry about this at all for now) My problem is I don’t know what to do in my life. I guess I have quarter life crisis. Earlier I wanted to do music and act , I took professional classes and left because I felt bored idk why. I felt like I need someone to guide me and handhold me since I know no one in this industry. Talking about my job I have always moved into roles I loved every bit of work and I m very sincere and hardworking. I stopped working out , I stopped cycling, I stopped painting. I stopped liking everything literally. Idk how to get back at things. I feel I am gonna die anyway why I need to do this , or that or etc etc. I even took counselling but it did not seem yo help me. Idk what to do. Please share your experiences too and what I need to do.

I'm a fitness chaser who can't control what I eat. So I do okay. I want to restart my fitness journey but a bit structured this time. So what's your fitness regime that I can jump into? Also what's your opinion on fitness tracker? I have my eye on Garmin watches but worried about their support.

New to gymming Im following the athlean X 3 month beginner workout. Any guidance or tips on gymming is appreciated

How do you guys keep yourself motivated to go to Gym after office?? 🙄

My current employee is offering a gym membership as part of employee benefits (not free, gotta pay some money so its seen as something you've paid for and make use of it, rather than taking it for granted if its kept free). I've been living a sedentary lifestyle for the past 1.5yrs as I had been under quite a lot of depression rollercoaster and loss of job and endless job hunting. But I've now decided it's time to bring back my fitness and stay in my best health form and live a healthy lifestyle. I also want to force myself into getting comfortable with living life outside of the comfort zone (atleast for most of the time). And hence, took up this gym membership. But now, I'm having random fears of what if my body isn't actually in good condition to bear workout ? I have some unknown skin rashes and allergies that appear and disappear randomly. What if there's an underlying issue that I need to take care of ? What if workout might make it worse ? I've also seen people fainting to their last breath after joining gym to get back in shape. (I might be overthinking but these are real concerns though) Is there any way I can have myself checked and make sure I can go ahead and take this leap of faith ?

I feel I've wasted years of my life in being inconsistent in whatever I take up. I've been working out for approx. 4 years of my life but have been super inconsistent in going to the gym, and sticking to my diet. I'm in the physique that I was around 4 years ago. All the inconsistent effort I had put in these 4 years has gave me nothing. I've wasted thousands on supplements, personal trainers, gym subscriptions and in the end, I'm back to square one. The same goes to my hobbies. Been trying to learn an instrument and have been inconsistent with my classes. In the end, I've wasted my money on time on the classes. Have also bought 2 instruments and both the instruments are just gathering dust. Enrolled myself to a foreign language class and I failed to complete the classes- it's because of my pathetic time management skills & the inability to be inconsistent in practicing and working on the assignments, Upskilling- LOL! I have no idea how many thousands I have spend on courses and I'm sure I haven't completed ONE- at least ONE course. Reason- pathetic time management skills & inability to focus on course. I am extremely impatient, I get distracted easily and I fail to complete the given tasks. I'm married, I'm a 30 years old obese guy and I'm earning just 15 LPA. Not that I'm dumb coz I believe I have some intelligence in me but I feel I'm doomed for life if I continue to be like this. I realised that the key to overcoming these issues is being consistent in whatever I pick up. But i fail to be inconsistent in whatever i pick up. I've also realised that I have pathetic will power. I lack will power to an extent that if given a change to fight for my life or just die, I would prefer just dying as it would take less effort compared to fighting back to live. How can I work on my will power and save my ass from getting fucked by life? I am already suffering due to my actions and lack of actions & I feel it's high time for me to stop continuing to be the way I am.