Feeling depressed at Amazon(2YOE/41L CTC). Anyone else feeling the same way?
I can't seem to relate to much of the non-FAANG junta out there. I mean I have a cushy job with probably 0.1% pay of all SWEs(pretty much like all of us do). But these cookie-cutter roles have been taking a mental toll on me. Like I am getting paid but I feel a little purpose-less. What am I gunning for in this life? All my life I wanted to go to a good college to get into a good company. In college I wanted to get a good codeforces rank so that I could get into FAANG. Now that I am in FAANG I have nothing to look forward to. Any of you all feeling this way? Because I don't see myself offer-shopping and feeling much happy about that either.
Recently watched Soul on hotstar and this actually makes sense now. The character was trying hard to perform in front of a crowd and when it happened he wasn't feeling any change at all. At that time, he was told about the fish and the ocean story :-
I heard this story about a fish.
He swims up to an older fish and says, “I’m trying to find this thing they call ‘the ocean.'”
“The ocean? the older fish says, “That’s what you’re in right now.”
“This?” says the young fish. “This is water. What I want is the ocean!”
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This is so fucking elitist. Dude Amazon in FAANG is the same as KPMG in Big 4. lol
DecentWord73
Stealth
7 months ago
Merko Dede Bhai job apni :)
DecentWord73
Stealth
7 months ago
I understand 😊 it's alright. If I were at the higher rung on Maslows hierarchy I might've felt similarly. However, I don't understand how that is insensitive or disgraceful. He could ask for a more meaningful project or work or make a lateral or vertical move. If he's completely sick of his job he could invest with a start up and exit. But either ways, what he's saying is like, dude I'm dating a model rn and I'm sick of the pasta she makes everyday, that's all she knows. Idk maybe it's a bad metaphor. Hope you understand
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@primeIITian You are saying this because you have now all what you once wanted. God forbid, for once think what if you lose all this. The moment you will think this you will understand your purpose in life. :)
Both of my parents are dead. Worst case scenario I will die too without money and my wife will get my term life insurance.
@PrimeIITian that is what. You have a secured future. No issues of earning a living. That is why you have lost all purpose in life while most of us are running behind money because we lack it. That is why for most of us the life purpose is to
1. Earn a decent living for us and our families.
2. Secure future of our kids.
3. Help others in our own little ways.
If you feel purpose less, I would recommend you to -
1. Help others in reaching their professional goals.
2. Sponsor education of atleast one kid and support them.
3. Sponsor medical expenses of someone who is in need.
4. Visit slums sometimes and donate things to kids you will feel happy to their happy faces.
When we money can't give us happiness anymore, that means you are now ready to serve others. :) :)
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I’ve been trying to get into FAANG. Now I get to know that it is not good there.
Mera kya hoga 😞
Sometimes I do but then 💰 is important because my lifestyle has shot up. Can’t leave to pursue risky shit anymore.
SheldonCooper
Stealth
7 months ago
How do you get in meta from india
Referrals are the bare minimum to get in. No chance one can get in without it.
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Now this is the best time for you to start your spiritual journey and I am pretty much sure you will love it once you start it .You will get all your answers and I am saying this with my experience.
Amazon is the easiest of the FAANG. You should try to get into Google.
I knew FAANG would die by the time they started laying off people. Apart from Apple the rest will continue to perish.
kuchbhi123
Student
7 months ago
bro , if u wanna do something new . Please let's swap places . I will happily do ur job and you do etl dev
This is actually insensitive to the emotions I had conveyed in my post. Is that a good thing @kuchbhi123 ?
kuchbhi123
Student
7 months ago
bro , do u even realise in which position you are? I will be graduating in 2024 with 8.55 lpa job. And many of our folks are still unplaced . There even codeforces expert who are not getting placed. And here u are printing 41 lpa . That's why I said , let's swap positions because I want that money and u will get to learn a different skill ( etl development, data engineering) .
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corporate_pawn
Stealth
7 months ago
In the same boat 21M making 3LPM and completely bored with life. What I have realised is unless you are not having a change in your life, you will be bored. So it's simple take a break live life the way you want, which in my case is travel more. I have a remote job so don't have to worry much. Good luck!
I love to hear your success corporate_pawn. What is your job title exactly?
corporate_pawn
Stealth
7 months ago
we don't actually have a naming culture should be more than sde2 probably
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I had a similar issue. I had joined Gojek which I felt was an elite company in my particular field, but then I got laid off. I had to decouple my sense of self worth from the brand name of the company I worked for
Sorry to hear that you got laid off. I appreciate you sharing the hard moments in your life. Gojek is certainly a top tech company yet being laid off has no bearing on your ability as a person. You are smart and strong, and you will continue to do well in your life. What is your job title by the way?
Giving an interview for a FAANG screwed up my current work life balance .
My performance coach is saying something similar about this as well. I need to find meaning outside of work and that is hard considering that after I failed Class XIth I lost all my confidence and threw myself at studies and later at work.
My goal is to:
1. Help others in reaching their professional goals.
2. Sponsor education of atleast one kid and support them.
3. Sponsor medical expenses of someone who is in need.
4. Visit slums sometimes and donate things to kids.
Umadbro
Stealth
7 months ago
I know a solution. Quit and go stay in haridwar for a year. Worked for Beatles, Steve Jobs and many others.
If you frown upon leaving your job, don’t ask for suggestions.
Can you please refrain from using definitive language. I have constantly strived to provide accurate information to those who have seeked that from me.
Umadbro
Stealth
7 months ago
Here is a constructive one: your problem is that work is not meaningful or there is no purpose in your life. Now that you have identified that, you pretty much have two realistic options. Leave your job to do something about it, find the proverbial meaning, spend time in a different experience, or just hope it will automatically change via a miracle.
You want a purpose in life, but don’t want to leave a cushy job too. That’s like eating your cake and having it for later as well. Too many people hope that, but life doesn’t work this way. So quitting is step 1. Without a definite plan. Cos you don’t need a plan to find meaning. It’s exploratory. If you can’t do that, stop ranting.
I would suggest that look at the frugality with which people tend to work. I went to MTR and I realised that humbleness, simplicity and excellence are the pillar of success in life, work and relationships. I hope you find strength in what you set out to achieve.
MTR is good. I can appreciate the sensitivity of your words and the gravitas it has made me experience. Thank you.
Vrizal
Stealth
7 months ago
What is mtr?
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Words like purpose and impact are overrated and overused. Half of the people use it to justify them getting bored in their life.
If you are a bachelor, I understand this will not register with you quiet yet.
Can you explain some more. My wife is a renowned performative artist and she finds a lot of gratification in the work she does because it is an expression of her true self. Your insensitive take is damning to say the least.
My insensitive take is not on any artist but so called tech bros who think they are doing art or something, but all they are doing is normal job work. More power to your wife though. You should also find a side hustle or art hobby to get gratification
InfiniteChaos
Stealth
7 months ago
Hardly in your situation but here are two quick thoughts:
-Pay it forward- You have money and tick the boxes of success. Start identifying where you can have a broader impact with your skills/time/money and try contributing
-Who are you? If you immediately think of your work to answer this, rethink. Pick passion projects you thought of / hobbies you had / stuff that you found interesting when young. Lean into them and geek out
I agree. I will now work on the following.
My goal is to:
1. Help others in reaching their professional goals.
2. Sponsor education of atleast one kid and support them.
3. Sponsor medical expenses of someone who is in need.
4. Visit slums sometimes and donate things to kids.
If you're looking for somewhere to start with goal 1, then I could use the help :)
@PrimeIITian I hope you get out of it but I mean can't you maybe change your role to work in a role that you think is somewhat more meaningful and I think maybe spending some time alone will give you much clarity! Hope for the best here to listen. 😇
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