In seach of happiness in life!

I have been a little caught up with numerous things in my life lately and have finally found some free time to open up myself to new experiences. I had a wishlist of shows and movies that I wanted to watch but as soon as I start watching them, I get bored and feel like turning it off. No, its not the content No, its not the genre No, its not the actors No, its not the taste either This is pretty ironic as considering the fact that I have spent a fair share of my youth chasing academics and career, my heart had always craved for life experiences. I had to let go of the woman I loved simply because I was too focussed on my JEE. I wont be able to forgive myself for that EVER. It almost felt like I had lost a limb, without which , I would be rendered disfunctional. Thats a separate story tho. Nothing excites me (yep nothing) Nothing amuses me Nothing feels lively I have no clue where my life is headed I understand that as we age, our triggers of happiness change. I have put concious efforts into knowing what those new triggers are. But I cant find any plausible sources of happiness. I am performing pretty well with my career. Even got a double digit hike. But didnt feel that kick of joy. Have I approached a dead end?

Every day we are struggling to get ourselves in a better state than the previous day but still we are totally anxious about how the health of us or our family members will be. I am earning a lot when compared to what other people at age of 24 are doing, graduated from IIT and working on my terms at well established companies, but still there is so much anxiety which I have inside me. My father passed away when I was 17 and during the same time my maternal grandmother passed away, both from cancer while putting big anxiety in my mind that is my life all safe, healthy and sound. Being the eldest child of the family I have worked and have reached a good position in the last few years to take care of my family financially, and we are getting financially so much better than we were before, most of our dreams are getting true. But I am not happy, not at all. I have reached a state where I am earning a lot given what is needed but I still can't be happy about anything I have. I cry, I get super anxious and idk why. Any news of pain or small change in the health of my family triggers me, and similarly with mine. I constantly live under fear that something bad will happen whenever we all get happy, when we are laughing I get scared on how long this laugh really is. It's scary to the point I am constantly searching on internet symptoms and things of all the worst diseases possible. Nazar, black magic all seems real to me and that relatives are really behind us if we get lil better than them. I have constantly tried to have a very positive outlook towards life, enjoy whatever days I have and live my life to the fullest but it's not easy, your family is always what you will work for and what to see them the happiest and more importantly healthy. I will stop consuming insta and focus on having moments with them instead of scrolling through all the people suffering in life. I workout regularly and have a relatively fitter body. Lets see what life holds for me.

I am 23M working in a well renowned Fintech startup. Have got what I have dreamed of in college like high ownership, good pay and other similar things. But lately realized that I can't do these things for my majority of life. Although I enjoy my work but still feeling lonely and aimless. Previous to September it was remote but now they have made it hybrid and I have to reallocate to Gurgaon and now I am feeling more lonely and aimless in life. Have tried travelling and other stuffs inorder to find interest in life but nothing excites me.

I’m a very private person and I was a bit confused whether I should write here or not, but anyway. So, day before yesterday I was sitting on my chair after dinner and was thinking about my life and what the hell am I doing. I realised that, Saala bachpan se aaj tak race me hi bhaag raha hun. Pehle school me 1st, 2nd, 3rd aane ki race me. Then acche college milne ki race me. Then uske baad acchi job milne ki race me. Then uske baad agar ladki chahiye toh uske liye bhi ek race hai (Don’t have a gf, plz don’t take me wrong, it was a realisation) My current daily routine is like this: Wakeup everyday, write code, go gym, dinner, and then sleep and repeat this cycle everyday. School ke dost peeche chhoot gaye, college ke dost apni life me busy ho gaye, colleagues se main zyada baat nhi karta and main akela padh gaya. Feels like life is not intriguing anymore, it has no spark left. Its so painful to live everyday. I feel like I don’t want to live any more, I want to die but I can’t cuz of 2 reasons. 1. I’m the only son of my parents. 2. If I die like this, then I won’t be able to come out from the birth cycle. That’s it 🙏🏼

Sometimes I feel like quitting the job and be relaxed and happy. Am fade-up with office politics, too much work pressure and moreover from this Indian mentality at work. Want to get rid of all this nonsense but I can't leave without a job, because for me it is keeping me engaged rather than a boring life without a job, even money also matters in this expensive lifestyle.

What are you earning for ? Is it concrete or something vague that one day you will need this amount or something? Is it more than you or your family needs? Or are you just a sheep like me ?

I can't seem to relate to much of the non-FAANG junta out there. I mean I have a cushy job with probably 0.1% pay of all SWEs(pretty much like all of us do). But these cookie-cutter roles have been taking a mental toll on me. Like I am getting paid but I feel a little purpose-less. What am I gunning for in this life? All my life I wanted to go to a good college to get into a good company. In college I wanted to get a good codeforces rank so that I could get into FAANG. Now that I am in FAANG I have nothing to look forward to. Any of you all feeling this way? Because I don't see myself offer-shopping and feeling much happy about that either.

Hello, how's your life going lately my friend?

I am 21 years old. I have good offers (20lac+) from good companies, but I am not happy. I always feel that something is missing in life, I don't know what and why I feel so. I tried to get in a relationship, but whenever I express this feeling, things get bad between both of us. I really want to love and get loved. I have been living my life alone for about 3 years now. I want to make friends, and I want to be in a relationship, but the last 3 years have not been nice to me because of which I don't like going out and having fun. I was in a depression and a workaholic nerd for the past years and feel that now I have got wired in such a way which is not letting me have fun and enjoy life. I find myself lonely. Whenever I don't have anything to work on, I get anxious, and I get this question, what am I doing with life. Maybe I am feeling lonely while writing this post and may sound little gone case. Open to your suggestions, do share your stories if you have been through this phase. Is it normal to feel like this?