Want to get some perspective here because I think it’d be valuable to hear about other people’s experiences. This job at Google has completely destroyed my confidence and I feel so paranoid about shipping anything now. I have made some mistakes but I have always caught them in staging or working drafts.
Here is what my manager has said to me:
And the reason I have been told this is because: I messed up a flow that the Lead PM had come up with in the first place. Then the Lead PM flips back on me and says that it would be "an embarrassment" to ship this.
I find myself immersed in a constant cycle of spending hours each day reviewing work, gripped by the fear of facing criticism or even the prospect of being fired. Despite investing significant time and effort, it seems that the only feedback I receive is overwhelmingly negative. It has reached a point where I question myself and wonder if I should have not been here at all. This toxic work environment is undeniably draining, and I'm left grappling with insane anxiety. Has anyone else faced this?
I am really sorry that you had to go through all of this. You already have good brand name on your resume.
Don’t let this affect your morale and switch to a better FAANG/ recently funded Startup.
Wow this has made me reconsider the FAANG move I had been contemplating.
@salt I am trying to switch but my parents are pushing me not to.
How about an internal team switch within Google itself? I have a couple of friends in google who are quite happy with their team and peers, I am sure you will be able to find a good match too (+ your parents will be happy as well)
Hey, i get it’s pretty demotivating when people say these things, but try to see in positive way like you have room to improve and you know where to improve.
I was in same situation when i started working as sde. Make sure in your tech doc you mention all the cases you are going to cover, test the flow/ ask people who know about flow and most importantly how any change will affect business.
And don’t be too hard on yourself, you will learn, keep improving. What people say to you is reflection of their self.
Still feel can’t do it then move out to other team or company.
@ThickMangoShake I will certainly try to improve.
Sunder Pichai made Google Asundar. Indian CEOs have set an example of how company and culture is destroyed once they reach at the helm Pretty good reasons to not make Indians CXO in global companies
@dopamine listen man, everyone fucks up, not sure how much exp you have that they are expecting you to pull out magic out of your ass. But the words they used to describe are not constructive at all.
They might be toxic boomers to say stuff like “embarrassment”(unless you fucked up in production and costed the team, in which case they are hustling angry don’t take it to heart).
In a good company culture, colleagues would replace the harsh language to a more supportive language so as to encourage the person do better. As positive reinforcement works better, putting down someone will not make it better unless they are in a situation where it is live or die(in jungle or something).
I also believe in not being too sensitive about stuff like this but seasoned corporate people would know about how to get stuff done and so they would rather be supportive in words to get the work done and raise your confidence so that same mistakes are not made again and you learn the same culture and pass it down.
On other hand if you are just critical and harsh then that would definitely expose the truth but there is no solution or thought of team effort anywhere.
It’s like teacher saying “You are stupid to not understand this” instead of saying “ What exactly you didn’t understand” the latter would entice them to work together and bridge any gaps.
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