dheere dheere samz aa rha hai, wo bhaiya "bas ek ball khila de" kyu bolte the

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Is it just me or is it because Monday? Can I be deficient in some vitamin?

I’m a very private person and I was a bit confused whether I should write here or not, but anyway. So, day before yesterday I was sitting on my chair after dinner and was thinking about my life and what the hell am I doing. I realised that, Saala bachpan se aaj tak race me hi bhaag raha hun. Pehle school me 1st, 2nd, 3rd aane ki race me. Then acche college milne ki race me. Then uske baad acchi job milne ki race me. Then uske baad agar ladki chahiye toh uske liye bhi ek race hai (Don’t have a gf, plz don’t take me wrong, it was a realisation) My current daily routine is like this: Wakeup everyday, write code, go gym, dinner, and then sleep and repeat this cycle everyday. School ke dost peeche chhoot gaye, college ke dost apni life me busy ho gaye, colleagues se main zyada baat nhi karta and main akela padh gaya. Feels like life is not intriguing anymore, it has no spark left. Its so painful to live everyday. I feel like I don’t want to live any more, I want to die but I can’t cuz of 2 reasons. 1. I’m the only son of my parents. 2. If I die like this, then I won’t be able to come out from the birth cycle. That’s it 🙏🏼

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My story is long, Jo hua so hua. A month ago I used to do good exercise daily eating properly or aaj haal ye he ki jo bhi mile khaane khaa leta hu, poora din bed pe mareez ki trhe pade raho poora din tired rheta hu har roz or neend ki maa bhen ho rakhi he sirf dreams hi dreams chalte he. Kuch bhi krne ka man nhi 0 motivation. Salary theek he kaam bhi ho hi jaata he jese tese mere se koi baat krta he to zuban ladkalati he esa nhi he me chutiya hu jee main de kr ek nit ki cse branch se b.tech kri he non reserved category se. Bc samjh nhi aa rha isse kese bhar niklu 2 saal hone jaa rhe he try and fail lga hua he Mera ... Ab try krne ka bhi nhi krta. Kabhi nhi socha tha esa haal ho jayega. Motivation k naam pe mujhe mera bada bhai sb kuch lgta he, na me rota hu na hassta hu na logo se friendly trhe se baat kr pata hu, Mera humour bhi accha tha bina kisi ka dil dukhaye bhot logo ko hassaya he mene to ab sb se ese baat krunga to majak smjhenge ek do se try kiya tha bolne ka bc ignore kr diya, 24 ka hu ese haar maan k betha hu na jaane kyo.

Holi hai? Diwali hai? So what, nothing to enjoy. Lets spend the day laying on the bed, watching stuff over phone. Feeling less and less disconnected with friends, to the point where I feel I don't even have friends. College friends are based in another city. Didn't even try to make friends at workplace. Stuck alone in my homecity as past 6 years I was based somewhere else completing my grad and preparing for jee. Prior to that focused a lot on studies. So had little to no interaction with people during academics. And now when I have time and money to spend, there is noone with whom I can have fun with.

I've been wanting it since I was a kid just like I wanted an ipad. I pondered over ipad for 2 years and then ended up buying it. It has been 8 months since I bought it and it's lying discharged because I don't know what to use it for. Similarly I've been craving to buy PS since I was a kid. I like gaming but not too big of a fan and now im concerned that even if i buy PS 5 will i use it? Whats your suggestion? I don't want to throw 50k like I did for iPad. 🤐 PS: I can very well afford it so money isn't a problem. It being worth the money and I being able to use it is, and I don't know what to do