Just a long rant about life
When i was in college i wanted to build my own company/product. Thought of many ideas and tried to build something. None of them worked and it affected my studies so I had to quit just to clear my exams.
After college I took placement...

It is just luck + hardwork man. Work harder at everything and you will get there.

It gets better - don't worry about everything all at once. Take it one day at a time, with persistence, luck is bound...

Focus on one single thing, go to the gym or play something to keep physical & mental sanity, and career - think from ...