I feel like talking some depressing things but I know whatever we speak/think for long turns out to be True. So I would rather be quiet

I just trust, adore, care, fight for 3 persons in my life and those are my immediate family members.

For the 2nd time in my life I heard them saying something at my back which was very very hurtful. (yaa men are supposed not to get hurt)

That person wants me to lower my standards for the girl I wanna marry, since one more girl is rejected.

At 3 in night the same things are still repeating in my mind which happened a day back. I have tried to just sleep and sleep these 3 holidays to get that thing out of my mind OR TO understand their perspective better.

Uff. The only persons I can die for cannot happily support my standards. I don't know, really felt like leaving home multiple times today. Thing is I am not a kid anymore, a man cannot leave his home. He has to take care of it even if that may suffocate him sometimes. Thought of a good place to go, then again I thought of the responsibilities on my shoulder.

At one side, the dream of retiring parents comes with the weightage of "stopping to live" sometimes. Idk.

I used to feel if I have these 3 people I don't need anything friend or anything else. But now what I heard at my back is making me feel I AM ALL ALONE. I used to feel as the richest person on earth because I had my family. Also, the riches which one thinks of. Now I feel all alone, because I doubt they must have a lot in their heart which they say at back.

Oops a depressing post 😂