I can relate to your pain. I lost my uncle 8 years back. I couldn't express my feelings then(don't know how to in front of people) but, everytime I remember him now, I feel sad he isn't there with me.
I had gotten more love and care from him than my own parents and his love for me was more than he gave to his own child. He was my godfather.
I have lost so many people, but, his absence is the thing I hate the most in my life! I wish if he was here, he could help me out with the shit I am going through! When everyday is a despair, he would've been a glimmer of hope for me
@Shif , this does get easier, but you don't stop missing him!
If you need someone to talk to who's not judgemental, I am here. Take care!