Rant of an engineer

I don't know if this is a right place to vent out , had been topper in college , schools always distinguished from other students did standout by doing things out of box . My friends used to go enjoy trips while I was busy participating in hackathons and conferences during college. Used to put double efforts for doing things which not all students did....

Gradually got into MNC with very good package ,later working over there for some years realised had to change and interviewed for 30+ companies including Microsoft, Meta , Google and cracked almost all companies which I gave interview for. This happened during covid But yeah did change to the company where I felt I could learn a lot .... and here comes the twist of the life.

Fast forward 2 years I couldn't prove myself over here and kind of not able to clear any interviews now and feels like not enjoying life by over working , spending my most amount of time in front of laptop not meeting friends or go for hobby activities due to the preparation for interviews ... Feels like missing out on life and also feeling my company switch is not going anywhere and also my current job growth is also going in negative direction.

But yeah not sure why for the same person where all tasks were very easy and now has turned to nightmare.... Like not able to do anything which I had done earlier... How did you stay strong when things go south in your life ??

I am just hoping I will be able to achieve them back.... 😞