Overthinking

These past 6 months my performance at work has been dwindling and one primary reason I attribute is memory loss. I find it difficult to recall key points of mails, design reviews, MoMs etc. and often end up missing out things at assigned tasks. What's scarier is that it not only applies to new concepts, I often find myself forgetting even formerly familiar things. During morning updates and discussions I find myself giving uncertain inputs and asking shaky questions because I find it hard to remember key terms, figures etc. I sometimes even forget to pick up some assigned tasks altogether. Random brain freezes have become everyday affair. . Sleep-wise it has been little medium-poor but not so bad that could explain such drastic changes. I'm 30 yr old, male, unmarried and don't have any major health issues (except some stress / anxiety and accompanying Irritable Bowel Syndrome condition). . If anyone else experienced this, how have you dealt with it?

As the title says. I have tried many methods of dealing with procrastination to code, there is always a constant fear of not being consistent, plus programming doesn't come easy to me or rather I don't have the grit to do it. I have seen other college mates grinding their ass off to DSA, how do I go past the stage of fear of feeling dumb and procrastination? Anytime I try to sit to do anything I immediately get this wave of overwhelming anxiety, I then start scrolling on my phone to get rid of the feeling. I can't even sit properly on a chair for long - yeah call me COVID kid or something but this has been the case for years. I only manage to do work/study at the very last moment but programming isn't like that, it takes consistent efforts. Are there any methods to achieve it? P.S. hard scolding or stern answers are also welcomed, really want to improve myself.

So I might get some hate for this. I know this is weakness and the feedback I've gotten is toughen up. But I've never known how. Is there anyone else whose body and mind had accepted that they're not going to amount to anything but fought their way through it? Can you tell me your story? Or give me any book suggestions?

I took my day off (Monday) as I was feeling a little tired. But I really did not stop thinking about work, even though I was not supposed to. I think I might be attached to my workplace/work/ project, a little too much. Do you viners also face this? If so, how do you tackle this?

Thank you in advance :)

Today i have gone to doctor as i have headache and little bit of dizziness. She said i got anxious all the time. It is kind of true. But i dont know how to rectify those anxiousness. For example, i am going get a project where i dont how to work on backend project wrt testing. I got anxious. I got anxious while driving that i have to drive safely. I dont have to go for over speed limit. Even if i pick up tea cup i got anxious that tea should not be spilled on floor. I have remote job and work is chill. But anxiousness always finds a way in my routine. Due to that i am getting high blood pressure. I am also walking daily except this week due to sickness. Any idea how to be less anxious in every work.

For the last 2 months I have been trying to go to the gym and take care of my health but every week something or the other comes up and I'm working more than 14+ hrs sometimes. 12 hrs is average. Every time something is going on in my mind around my work or performance or layoffs and a lot of things. I'm frustrated. Can somebody tell me what should be the best way to handle this? Because of this I have high anxiety and also not getting proper time for personal life. I also feel a lot demotivated sometimes , thinking that why I'm working till 2am and for what?

I haven't been doing mentally well since I don't know when. I've been extremely self critical about myself to the extent that it has negatively affected my relationship with loved ones. I think I have ADHD as I strongly feel I have the symptoms that are described in YouTube or in any article online. To make matters worse, I am not doing well in terms of my career, my finances have taken a hit, have gained 12+ kilos since a year, unable to focus on work and upskilling and I have anger issues. I am 30 YO and I feel my life is turning into a disaster. Can someone please recommend therapists in Bangalore to whom I can talk face to face? I sometimes feel I'm seeking sympathy but in reality, I just need help. There is a lot of guilt, regret and self hatred rooted deep inside me which has wrecked my confidence, self love, compassion which has started to affect others. So if you guys know anyone, please let me know.

I have been into programming since I was 15. I have been working in the IT industry for the past 8 years and have been very successful in my domain because of my will to solve problems at work as interesting puzzles. But this interest has slowly and gradually formed a huge part of my life to a level that if I am away from it for sometime, it gives me anxiety. I am afraid this will affect my other parts of life like giving attention to my family, spending ample time with them. As a process, I started to have no code Saturdays so that I am completely away from my laptop and spend time doing other mundane things. But this has not reduced the anxiety. Any suggestions for reducing my workaholic nature ?