Adulting

I have never thought my own will hate me my paa maa and my brother. If you think different then other members of your family it is a sin. I'm 25 going to be 26 coming February. Saying says parents never left you in the crowd. I'm not Good in Study but i never disappoint my family studying hard working hard. Never fail. But they never happy of me always want more. In 2021 COVID i done my graduation around August. Till then everything is okay I'm with them not like happy i want love of my fam which i feel still Missing. In September as of COVID didn't have any jobs they started why you free go to hotel if your degree not Worth ( BCA ) Wash utensils bla bla i left home with 3k move to another city to my friend I have good knowledge but all they require for job is training certificate and other to get a job in IT. I have done a calling job for 3 months and get a off campus job in Infosys as 14k (WFH) I'm happy i did tell my parents no reaction i know its too low but don't have money to do course and time to sit and polish my skills move back home and i give 10k at home nd 4k for my expenses around 1.5 years done same then wfo call then they again what is purpose of 14k now i have a job which pay me 25k (again it low pay I'm happy) one day I'm sitting with my mom we have a family gossip going on suddenly they again make me feel useless nd i notice nowdays there is no love. When my own make me feel like this and made me cry what i can expect from other. Seriously Money make respect, money make love. I don't believe in love which is shown when you hurt. Its a pitty only.