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I have been a little caught up with numerous things in my life lately and have finally found some free time to open up myself to new experiences. I had a wishlist of shows and movies that I wanted to watch but as soon as I start watching them, I get bored and feel like turning it off. No, its not the content No, its not the genre No, its not the actors No, its not the taste either This is pretty ironic as considering the fact that I have spent a fair share of my youth chasing academics and career, my heart had always craved for life experiences. I had to let go of the woman I loved simply because I was too focussed on my JEE. I wont be able to forgive myself for that EVER. It almost felt like I had lost a limb, without which , I would be rendered disfunctional. Thats a separate story tho. Nothing excites me (yep nothing) Nothing amuses me Nothing feels lively I have no clue where my life is headed I understand that as we age, our triggers of happiness change. I have put concious efforts into knowing what those new triggers are. But I cant find any plausible sources of happiness. I am performing pretty well with my career. Even got a double digit hike. But didnt feel that kick of joy. Have I approached a dead end?

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It just all feels pointless ..

So, I'm a 27 year old guy working as a software engineer for the last 4 years and come from a typical middle class family. I have made decent money of about 50 lakhs in savings but I feel like it has come at a huge cost to me which was not worth it. Here's the cost it took for me to reach this goal: - Joined college in 2016 and never enjoyed the college life or went to gym to make good physique - All I did throughout my 4 years of college was crammed DSA in the hope that one that I will be able to crack a SWE job. - Now after 4 years into my SWE career have not enjoyed life again due to work and have not worked on my physique again. - Never had a relationship. Never went on a trip. - Basically just never did anything which gave me satisfaction and kept myself holed up in my room from last 8 years. - Now when I'm 27 and approaching 30 I feel like wasted my prime years of 20s and it was all pointless. - And btw I hate my job also for which I sacrificed so much. - Now I want to change my life but whenever I try to do so I just am not able to. I'm addicted to watching reels and twitter for short term dopamine to escape my reality which is keeping me from changing my life drastically. - I know there is a problem with me and I know what I need to do fix that but I'm just not able to for some reason which makes me feel worse as it makes me depressed further and takes towards a downward spiral. - Also there is no one in my real life with whom I can share these thoughts without getting judged and feeling worse