Dying in guilt

There’s a lot of time for you too do what you wish to do. Guilt and regret are temporary, your actions are kinda more important.

We will always disappoint our people as every person is different. You did what you felt gave you happiness at that point. Don’t be hard on yourself.

Your parents will eventually be the happiest when they see you chasing your dreams and goals. Don’t regret anything. Just take it one day at a time and do what feels right.

Cheer!

My parents broke their old LIC to help me educate in a private college.
Now I try to help them by purchasing stuffs to make their life easier and comfortable. Recently purchased 55 inch Samsung TV, earlier wakefit mattress and before that washing machine.

Same situation was with me
Father didn’t earn much but made me an engineer.
It used to kill me thinking about how I fucked my engineering life , completed it in 6 years. But that was 10 years ago.

Cracked GATE after that (AIR 3799) , though chose not to pursue masters
Today I am a software engineer with 8 yrs experience and earning well. Recently I purchased a home as well.

So don’t let your regrets kill you from inside. People will tell you to forget about what you did and move forward, but you need to remember what you did and that regret will take you a long way if you decide to leave that behind you and learn from it.

Lastly, don’t look where others are in their life. You will reach where you want to be , but it might take some 4-5 years more to reach there that’s it. Eventually you will be there

Realised it the day I stepped in Kota. Saw people selling their land for the admission fee. That day I realised we are really at a good state. My parents enrolled me there and took a train returning ( instead of the bus).
After 2/3 years, my mother told me about the debit card limit at that time and that they were left with only 200/300 in cash. Never wasted their money on anyone after that till I started making money

Are you not employed rn? If you're supporting yourself and your parents then how's your life fuked ?

My parents made a lot of sacrifices to get me the education I wanted. My mom sold all her gold and land she got from her family. I learned all this 2 years back. And now I make sure I send them money every month, pay all their bills, and buy them any appliances or expensive gadgets they may need.

P.S - my parents are retired

Back when I was in college I didn’t know what sacrifices they made, and I did a bunch of things I regret too. But now the only way I can rectify it is by doing what I can now. I know now that they are extremely proud of me and that’s all that matters.

You can’t change your past but you can fix things in your present

No guilt, didn’t push my parents to pay hefty fees for colleges, they were also daily gig workers. Graduated as Non-collegiate. Started working smalls gigs after 12th. 1 year later got a job in call centre. After 12 years now I am proud I make enough that I can live life happily and my family can also fulfil all dreams.

That educational expense was not wasted FULLY. You got to experience that education. It will stay with you forever, it made you think about your guilt( many are guilt free) and lastly it gave satisfaction to them that they are doing their best.
They also might have had fun on their parents hardships. सास भी कभी बहू थी। but most Indian parents never tell this.
Look forward. Utilise whatever time is left. A lot of time is left.

Here I was have the opposite problem, I feel like a loser for earning way less than my parents. I earn 12 LPA while my parents earn 10x this. There’s not much I can do to improve their lives

The apple doesn't fall far from the tree. Your father couldn't be rich and successful. You are his son. You cannot reverse bad genes. It is biological.