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I think the current phase in my life is the lowest I am already PIPed by swiggy and I have broken up with my gf.

Feeling like my life has reached the end. Can't sleep at all specially after the break up. Now I regret for blocking her atleast I should have waited until getting into some company. But now I don't want to go to her due to some personal reasons.

It feel sucks. I am not able to focus on interview preparation. I am not in depression but my mental health is shit right now and gets headache daily.
Please help me shall I consult some doctor for this or is this okay. I don't have much friends that's why I am asking here

I genuinely need help

Sorry for posting here. Can anyone help me

Sorry to hear what you're going through. It may sound cringe but praying to god helped me during my tough times. 
 Talk to your parents and siblings if you're on good terms. If nothing helps talk to a psychologist. 
 I may get flack for saying this, but right now you have a much bigger problem to deal with, i.e. PIP. Start preparing for interviews during weekends and try to finish your office work diligently.  
  
 As for your relationship, no one here knows how serious you were about it. If both of you hadn't considered making it long term, I would say it's better to keep things the way they are right now. I had a pretty bad breakup few years back, but now when I look back, all I can do is laugh about the fact that,  I was head over heals for such a shitty person. 
  
 It's my suggestion and I might be completely wrong and being a d*ck here. You have to decide what's utmost important to you write now. 
  
 Prioritize your physical and emotional well-being, then your work, and then someone else. Wish you all the best.

Software Engineer

Ghosting everyone and thinking how a cheerful person turned into a depressed and lone ass!

Isn't life pre-COVID exciting and now it seems so gloomy! 

I missed my spark for quite a long time, and it's getting tough for me to bounce back. 

I'd like to hear from fellow grapeviners on their bounce-back with a bang story:)

Do you want to end it all?

Project Manager

It's been 4 years since covid started and all of us went into the first lockdown (24 March 2020). I just thought of this while making another post, and this has actually taken me aback. It was such a crazy time, and now it's just long gone. 

- We got a lot of time to be home, to be around loved ones, most of us are privileged and hence Covid wasn't bad at all. We were mostly making Dalgona Coffee, sourdough bread, playing PUBG, watching movies, etc. 

- A lot of us also lost loved ones. It was really brutal for those who did. And it was always scary for the rest of us. 

- Most of us who have been in tech saw our salaries climb the fastest. The absolute peak job market, best hikes, the world was very positive in that sense - not as much work and enough pay to enjoy 

- The biggest thing I've noticed: Covid got me hooked to Instagram/YT Shorts/and other social media. I feel like I used to be more aware and awake before covid. Somehow, a lot of exposure to social media/content etc. has made me just very zoned out in life. I think a lot of us have a much shorter attention span. 

IDK if this is true, but certainly feels like it is true. 

Just penning this down because I'm genuinely tripping how long it's been.

4 years since Covid started. What are your memories from that time? How have you evolved since?

Pre & Post Covid me are different person.  
 I don't know that guy now. And for some reason it looks like a decade has passed by yet the lockdown announcement on news just rings like as if it was yesterday. "bhaiyo beheno ..." 
    
 What I miss was empty roads. Blue skies of Delhi and pin-drop silence 24/7. Only rustling leaves and birds. For a moment the world looked at peace.  The sun was fantastic back then.  
  
 I am fortunate to be at this end of spectrum as others have disastrous circumstances. One thing I'm noticing since then. The time seems to be running abnormally fast now.  
 Like zipp! 3 months of 2024 gone.

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I hate to go back to work on Monday after the weekend. Not because I don’t like to code. I forget where i left on Friday. I hope many of them are facing this issue

Back to work trauma

Have come across these analogies twice in three days 

https://twitter.com/eemmanuels4/status/1738294727122837970?t=1cUGr0nXB1P7B8WyeevlNQ&s=19

https://www.instagram.com/reel/C1AOJXIOaqk/?igsh=NWoyMHZreGN0bHA2

Depression isn't sadness!

TW: Suicide please do not open these links if you are not feeling your best

I have been a little caught up with numerous things in my life lately and have finally found some free time to open up myself to new experiences. 

I had a wishlist of shows and movies that I wanted to watch but as soon as I start watching them, I get bored and feel like turning it off. 

No, its not the content
No, its not the genre
No, its not the actors
No, its not the taste either

This is pretty ironic as considering the fact that I have spent a fair share of my youth chasing academics and career, my heart had always craved for life experiences. I had to let go of the woman I loved simply because I was too focussed on my JEE. I wont be able to forgive myself for that EVER. It almost felt like I had lost a limb, without which , I would be rendered disfunctional. Thats a separate story tho.

Nothing excites me (yep nothing)
Nothing amuses me 
Nothing feels lively

I have no clue where my life is headed

I understand that as we age, our triggers of happiness change. I have put concious efforts into knowing what those new triggers are. But I cant find any plausible sources of happiness.

I am performing pretty well with my career.
Even got a double digit hike.
But didnt feel that kick of joy.

Have I approached a dead end?

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I am thinking of leaving my current job and focus on myself, getting to know myself better etc. Currently I have enough money saved for my expenses for next 6-8 months. 
   Everyone I have asked about this say don't leave your job if you don't have another lined up, in this tech winter. I understand their view point. It aligns with what my parents think as well.

Is there anyone who has had done this in the past? Do you recommend this route? Are the consequences far too severe? Does anyone have a different opinion from one stated above?

Anyone ever left job without having another job lying around for their mental peace?

I'm in the same boat, on the verge of quitting, and will most probably take the leap next month.  
 Thanks for the thread. A lot of insights. It has made me confident that I'm not doing anything stupid.

One week ago, everything was going well in my life. I had a good job, my mum was happy, Papa proudly told everyone, my son is a software engineer, there was no tension for my younger brother's education, we were thinking of buying all the things this diwali like for mum ,gold,for dad, bike.3 days before, my manager asked me for resignation and gives me poor ratings because management told him to do that. Since that day, my deep happiness has disappeared. Mummy is sad, papa is sad, I am not even feeling good. Today I went to the bank to take a loan for my brother's education. When I came to talk he rejected me.
I reached the station and was filled with sorrow. I kept writing this post. If I ever come back to my life, I will remember this time when I look at this post. And if everything has gone wrong, then I will accept my fate.

What kind of problems come in life?

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Am I alone feeling anxious about the market going down and the job situation becoming more volatile? I mean another lock down with companies not performing in FY23, idk got me anxious, stressed and just blah

So COVID is back, feeling blah yet?

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Got impacted in the layoff at Sharechat today after working 4+years here.
Got the news an hour back and have not shared this with anyone in my family yet.

I am sad and have to share this news with my fiancee and in-laws today. Tell them why I have to cancel vacation plans and look out for a job instead.

I am into an arranged married and my in-laws are very conservative and don't understand tech work culture, I don't know how they will take the news of a layoff.

I'm anticipating they will be shocked, her asshole brother-in-law will even make fun of me.

To make it worse the fault is mine for believing I won't be laid off when my company was not doing well. I thought it would not happen to me and never looked out in advance.

Fuck 2023. What a shit show Christmas.

Laid off, embaressed and sad

I don’t think you should cancel the vacation.  
  
 My point is - all hiring team members would be out, so nothing will change in hiring spheres.  
  
 But you should face your in-laws and you’ll learn more about them before you tie the knot. Job loss is temporary, getting into a relationship is more longer term.

Looking back at our college days, I remember how close we were. We used to think our friendship would last forever not only friends but cousins too, but things have changed. No one keeps in touch anymore. The friends I used to fart with are now distant, and when we do talk, it's only after months.

It's frustrating. We're doing well financially, but our relationships are suffering. Whether it's because of work pressure or being tied to the office, we can't visit our hometowns as often as we'd like.

On weekends, I find myself drinking alone, scrolling through old photos and videos of friends and family with some songs playing, and crying.

Life goes on...! Monday comes restart....!

I just wanted to share the feelings so i did :)

You are alone at the end of the day..!

This feeling in my chest is disgusting. I hate it. I do I get rid of it

This feeling.

UX/UI Designer

If you ask me, the purpose of life has to be more than climbing a self-constructed ladder. 

Like, it has to be more than a 3BHK in a metro, with two kids, a car and a prestigious job at a faceless corporation, 2 weeks of vacation and a movie on the weekend.

Isn’t this weird that, we all continue to fool ourselves? 

When you know nothing matters the universe is yours, and I've never met a universe that was into it. The universe is an animal, it grazes on the ordinary. It creates infinite idiots just to eat them. 

You know? Smart people get a chance to climb on top and take reality for a ride but it'll never stop trying to throw you. And eventually it will, there's no other way off

- Rick, Rick and Morty.

[Thread] What is according to you makes life worth living?

Remember when you were a kid and had a school trip the next day?    
    
 You sleep all excited, over preparing your bag, snacks, your pocket money and sleep fantasizing the day forward.   
    
 You wake up on the morning. You are excited as hell. Although it's no different than any other day but everything feels colorful. You can't wait to hop into your school bus and meet your friends who are just as excited as you.   
    
 I think what makes life is worth living are these experiences. When you sleep, you have something to look forward to. Someone to do, something to achieve, something you truly enjoy or be passionate about.   
    
 If you are just going through days fixated on the coming weekend or planned holiday. That is when things get a little messy.   
    
 I'm in that zone right now. I try to seek the satisfaction and happiness inside of me. So I don't depend on materialistic or emotional to feel lively. It must come from within and its damn hard to cultivate.   
    
 When I'll have that I'll be off from this corporate for good. .

Does this happen with you that when you listen/watch songs and it makes you remember those good times (or harsh times) with your partner or someone you were in relationship with.
This feeling of getting broken again, tears run down from your eyes. (Damn I miss you - waali feeling). But you have already moved on.
Many Anime Films - Your Name, 5 cm per second, I want to eat your pancreas. Makes it even more hard to watch because the feelings come out more strongly then.

But this is what being a human means right. We know we cant be together anymore but those feelings are soo precious and personal.

PS - I love to hurt myself by listening to those songs and movies again and again. Reason being, I never want to forget those feelings ever in my life.

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