This is so heartbreaking! 💔

Depression

Hello All I am feeling very low now.....i am in my early career days i have joined wipro back in 2022 After my Engineer. They onboarded us and provided us training in java after completion of training they put us on bench for 1 yr with no projects after that they started LOP (LOSS OF PAY) if you will not get tagged to project you will not get paid After that i got tagged to a support role (IT SUPPORT ) field services , from last one year i am working in it but no hike no nothing has been provided and also I don't want to work in this domain as i have several interests in cybersecurity field but due to no handson knowledge i am stuck 😭🙁 Can some one help me to guide what should i do next or can someone help to get job change PLEASE🙏

Have come across these analogies twice in three days https://twitter.com/eemmanuels4/status/1738294727122837970?t=1cUGr0nXB1P7B8WyeevlNQ&s=19 https://www.instagram.com/reel/C1AOJXIOaqk/?igsh=NWoyMHZreGN0bHA2 Depression isn't sadness!

I am sorry my first post was supposed to be an achievement or CTC /salary but will surely come back one fine day with it too. Anyways, I'm just trying to ask: what helps you? In your deepest, darkest of times, when nothing is working? Forget antidepressants for a second! Besides those medicines, what are some things that make you less depressed? The reason why I'm asking is that I am depressed. I was diagnosed by a professional. Meds I don't like because they end up making me feel a) more depressed b) not at all myself; c) give me other terrible side effects Took therapy, antidepressants and what not for insomnia still don't have the right way to handle. I just wanted new ideas, nevertheless, in hopes of finding something that may actually do something. If you ever have been in depression and insomniac please comment thereby creating a "safe space" Can't we ? For saving one life. Apologies for the long post but sometimes I just have to say it

I have been recently diagnosed with mixed anxiety and mild depression by a psychiatrist and was prescribed medication. Also asked to exercise everyday and pursue my hobby of reading. Any other tips on how to handle depression better while I am on medication?

TW: Depression It is nearing a decade since I fell into clinical depression (I have doctor's diagnosis) and I had to do a lot of work in those years to be able to do even the daily tasks - brushing my teeth, having a bath, eating food, drinking water, having a clean room, etc. Having a career where I am learning and making my mark, living my life, these are far fetched dreams when compared to these small things. And the truth is, I have come far. I have grown so much. When I look back at my journey, I am proud of myself for not giving up on myself, even when 95% of the time I had to do it all alone. Over the years so many things have happened, so many things piled on me, adding to the emotional burden, making me hit rock bottom all the time. I am honestly surprised with how much I have seen and went through in such a short lifespan. I have built myself up enough that I could at least have a normal daily routine even when I was severely struggling emotionally. And never did I think that there would come a day when I would see myself struggle with the daily tasks. I knew that I would struggle, but not with this. A few days ago, something happened, something that's the root cause of my mental illness. The adult me is already over it, but the child inside me was shook. I didn't realise it until today when I started to take notice of how I was being. I was struggling to even drink water that was not even a foot away from me, I had been eating only once a day, haven't cleaned my room in days, not working on my office tasks, literally doing nothing, not even going out of my room. I never thought my trauma would get triggered like this and I would again be in the same space as I was in the initial days of my depression. I know I will bring myself out again, I always have, always will. It just made me sad that I somehow don't seem to get a break from negative things happening in my life.

I turned 30 last month and I still feel i am a 20 year old. I lost the last 4 years of my life working from home and have started to go to office recently. I never worked together in a team, never been out for team lunches/dinners, never presented my work to the seniors/leadership. I have 4.5 years experience on the paper and my interaction with colleagues in person has been almost zero . I don’t know how to do my taxes, can’t do basic servicing of my bike, extremely indiscipline’s, rarely track my expenses, can’t say ‘No’, haven’t upskill we and hence stuck in TCS, can’t stick to a hobby or interest, pathetic in managing my time, have no sense of punctuality, socially awakened, overweight with a pot belly and hence have confidence issues, can’t take care of myself in terms of self grooming, couldn’t maintain friendships as I used to get offended when someone made fun of me or mocked me- my inflated ego is just useless. I can’t control my emotions, I sometimes get emotional and have tears in my eyes, I show emotions easily on my face, not smart when it comes to dealing with others, don’t know how much to talk to whom, whom to talk to, how to talk to and when to talk. I’ve been told I’m pessimistic and highly negative about myself but I’m just saying things the way it is. I have no responsibilities on life. I’ll be getting married the next year and I know I can take up the responsibility. But I still have the fear of putting my fiancé down. I love her a lot and I never even would do anything to put her down. My bad time management skills, inability to focus, getting distracted badly, being a slow learner, not networking, not having idea on making switches regularly, being too lazy and impatient to learn new things, not being updated in terms of on demand skills, tools , technologies, reluctance to learn something new and hence staying in comfort zone has screwed up my career. I feel stuck and lost in life. I honestly don’t know what to do.