I feel I've wasted years of my life in being inconsistent in whatever I take up. I've been working out for approx. 4 years of my life but have been super inconsistent in going to the gym, and sticking to my diet. I'm in the physique that I was around 4 years ago. All the inconsistent effort I had put in these 4 years has gave me nothing. I've wasted thousands on supplements, personal trainers, gym subscriptions and in the end, I'm back to square one.
The same goes to my hobbies. Been trying to learn an instrument and have been inconsistent with my classes.
In the end, I've wasted my money on time on the classes. Have also bought 2 instruments and both the instruments are just gathering dust.
Enrolled myself to a foreign language class and I failed to complete the classes- it's because of my pathetic time management skills & the inability to be inconsistent in practicing and working on the assignments,
Upskilling- LOL! I have no idea how many thousands I have spend on courses and I'm sure I haven't completed ONE- at least ONE course. Reason- pathetic time management skills & inability to focus on course. I am extremely impatient, I get distracted easily and I fail to complete the given tasks.
I'm married, I'm a 30 years old obese guy and I'm earning just 15 LPA. Not that I'm dumb coz I believe I have some intelligence in me but I feel I'm doomed for life if I continue to be like this.
I realised that the key to overcoming these issues is being consistent in whatever I pick up. But i fail to be inconsistent in whatever i pick up. I've also realised that I have pathetic will power. I lack will power to an extent that if given a change to fight for my life or just die, I would prefer just dying as it would take less effort compared to fighting back to live.
How can I work on my will power and save my ass from getting fucked by life? I am already suffering due to my actions and lack of actions & I feel it's high time for me to stop continuing to be the way I am.