My life before meeting her

I know a special person who make my life in hard times and dull times so beautiful we just met on online platforms and we become frinds days gone faster now we are not just online friends we become so closer and i fallen love with that person more than 5 times still loving that person without knowingly myself and then I understand that person told to me in one time " we are more than friends and more than lovers " and now I started realising what that person told and we both made a promises together for our life and now I trying full fill the promise so soon . I don't know why I've always think about that person is that person safe or not happy or sad . At one stage without knowingly I hurt her so much after that the person forgive me and understand inner child in my self .now no more hurting we are going to next stage to upgrade our self but I missing those old days with that person really without that person I can't stand again after having very down fall in my past life I think everyone should have like kinda this special person in their life . GUYS IF U HAVE THAT PERSON DON'T MISS THEM BECOZ THEY ARE MORE VALUABLE THAN GOLD OR DIAMOND.