update on my last post, went to a therapist.

thank you for the support on my last post( https://share.gvine.app/UPfUks6ks55jLbpB8 )

i went to a therapist after that and she made me realize that i have a ton of unresolved childhood trauma which makes me think that earning money will make me feel in control when in fact i still am brutally traumatized by events in the past.

i really liked watching american psycho, and have often related to the mind of patrick bateman. i can only wish that i don't turn out like him. My history with work, wealth and women has always been deranged.

my work attracts my wealth and it then attracts women. but inside I am hollow. hollow like i live in an empty shell with no conscience.

life is good and so is 2024. over and out.