Rant: Life always fuck my travel plans.

My life has been fucked up from last 10 months. Too much work pressure and workload with daily grilling by seniors. Recently I interviewed with a research advisory, was hopeful that i have a chance to change my life by leaving this place. But after 3 rounds, I got rejected by the partner. Feeling disheartened and depressed. My confidence is at the bottom right now. Don't know now where to go and apply. It seems that I am helpless now.

My mother called me yesterday and tells me she got scammed for about 10 lakhs and needs money by Monday. She has 4 lakhs and I will have to cover the rest. Turns out she let a friend take a loan in her name and this friend gave fake jewellery as collateral. The friend took loans under her husband’s name and my mom’s name, she divorced the dude and escaped. The bank called my mom and has asked her to pay, now they’re filing a case against my mom for fraud. I’ve spent my weekend talking to advocates and friends, and looks like the only way to get out of it unscathed is to cut a deal with the bank saying we’ll pay the money back and they don’t press charges in return. Contesting the bank is going to take time, money and the risk of my mom losing her job. As an older daughter who grew up in a broken family, I’ve spent my childhood and adulthood protecting my mother and sibling. I finally landed a well paying job 2 years ago and now the responsibility extended to providing for my younger sister and my mother financially which I’m more than happy to do. I’ve worked hard the past few months to save what I have right now beyond what I give my family, use to sustain myself and finally felt happy about the position I’m in. Now I’m heartbroken. I’m going to be emptying almost 70% of what I have so far for this for paying the bank and the lawyer. Especially for something that’s not even my mistake and something that could have been easily avoided. I’m not in a place to direct my anger at her, I know it’s a hard time for her as well. 6 to 7 lakhs might sound like a small amount to some but I don’t have the privilege to throw money like that. I don’t have fuck you money. I don’t take money from friends. I’m 25 and literally just started my life 2 years ago after working for peanuts. What’s even the point of working hard, leading an honest life if this is how it works? It’s just truly unfair and I don’t know how to deal with it.

I was regularly going to office & was staying in Gurgaon for almost over 8 to 9 months when i joined the company. Later. I observe that 2 to 3 people who were out-stationed (near by places) were only coming to office for a week or so. I joined that and requested my manager to let me work from home and will come to office once a month. (He let me do that!) Eventually i got married and shifted to Bangalore. Meanwhile story is i have very fluctuating relationships with my manager, he does favouritism and it is quite common in my process. But the pain area started when i am travelling from Bangalore and he constantly asking me (isn’t it difficult for you to travel and all ?, please do let me know if you plan to leave {just give me heads up} I m feeling very confused here - i and manager are very clear that there is no future here for me -i m unable capture a job or offer in Bangalore (I started searching from Feb) So all in all, do i have to live in this misery until i find job in Bangalore ? Any suggestions apart from job search. Ps. I am outstanding in my work

We’re pretty chill. But I’m planning to go for a vacation to Kerala for 10 days almost, and since i told them they have been weird. Immediate response was to say that it’ll be tough to manage the project and that long a leave isn’t possible I debated back and they were like fine. But since then it’s just been very cold. What can I do? 🤕

Everyone said travel would spark creativity and lead to my next venture. Instead, I'm more confused than ever and feeling the pressure to jump back into a traditional job. Has anyone else taken a big career break that didn't pay off as expected? How did you reframe the experience?

When I look outside my room I feel sad. I can see grey skies of Delhi. It is so cold. No one to hug or embrace. My heart Is hurting a lot. I dont know why. I worked so hard. I spend 10-12 hours at work and I have no time for friends and family. I also make good money (86LPA/6YOE). I have no time to spend this money. My family is happy with me because I am successful. My gf is happy with me because I can afford her lifestyle and give her nice gifts and experiences. I am borderline depressed. All my friends are from work. I feel like Patrick Bateman from American Psycho.

Ever since 2020, it feels like years have passed within weeks. I can't possibly explain this in words, but for some reason, time has been passing a bit too fast. Before I realized it, my graduation was completed, someone who would seem a grown-up to the person I was before the lockdown. Festivals don't seem to make me happy now, and neither does having friends and going out with anyone...everything seems normal and everything goes by before I can process anything on my mind. Is it just me? I can't feel any emotions like I used to, is it something that all grown-ups go through/suffer with?

Hello, how's your life going lately my friend?

Do you already have it or will you get it in the future? How has life been with it ? What are your future plans like ? Are you building it for your future family? How ? PS: for this context it's only about money/jewellery/real estate/assets etc.