Feeling Burnt Out, Purposeless and like an Imposter
Disclaimer: This post is not for self validation or to seek attention. Posting here strictly for advice as I believe many people here must have gone through this.
I’m a final year student studying BTech in India. I have a foreign internship confirmed from Feb next year, and my current intern at a startup is ending at 30th November. I’ve been working at this startup for more than 2 years now, poured my heart and soul into it, but due to career growth decisions I had to leave it.
With nothing to do for next 2 months, I have started slacking off from work even though I have 20 days left, which is bad. All work and no play since last 3 months have left me so burnt out that I have done less than 6 hours of coding in last 1 week.
It’s eating me up from inside as I have a huge obligation to this startup, plus there is so much to learn, and I don’t want to start my career with such unprofessional behaviour. Instagram and YouTube shorts have ruined my attention span, mental energy and will to work, and it’s affecting my mental and physical health as well.
I have tried multiple motivational videos, practices, tips and tricks, everything. They help for maximum of 2 days and then it’s again back to this. Even though I’m hugely interested in tech, learning, devops and programming… motivation is dead and my life feels ruined, especially after seeing all the achievements people are having in and around social media, linkedin etc.
I just don’t know what to do to overcome this lazyness.