I was in infosys for 1 yr 10 months. I got training in MEAN stack that was just formality and after that they put me on bench. As a fresher even I don’t give that much focus and enjoyed the new beginning. After being on bench of 3-4 months. They put me in flutter training where I gone through 2 months training and handson on it. I learned flutter and also did Handson but after that got no project as there were no project available on that and again went on bench. I studied angular as much I could in a month and able to get a project that was my first project.
I entered that project and that was hell. Even the tech leads were frustrated and rant about it. Its codebase was too complex to understand. And as I fresher I entered they didn’t gave any KT or anything. They just loaded me with work which I can’t even understand and process. I tried seeking help from seniors or tech leads but they were too occupied that they denied helping . They come and just tell do this nd this…try…and leave. I was too depressed as work pressure and load was extensive over there, senior project manager used to lash everyone for every small thing, and expect us to work late night and complete requirements. I was happy when I got the project thinking I’ll be able to learn and work but it turned out to be the most depressing phase where I pray to get easier work so that I can understand and do. After 3 months surviving there they released everyone including me as project completed and went into support. They pushed me on bench again. Again I wasted some time figuring out what to do and how to get better. I started looking jobs outside and make a switch. I learned angular and JavaScript concepts by going through courses and doing some basic Hanson. After preparing for sometime according to company specific requirements and interview process, I got an offer from Hashedin by Deloitte as an Sde 2, for the skills as angular developer. I was happy and joyful that finally I did something. But as I entered here my overthinking got me. I may got select for Sde 2 but how I’Kl be able to survive here.
As an Sde 2 they will expect me to deliver and work like experienced professional but I don’t have much Hanson experience or work experience related to working in projects. Even though everyday I’m trying to learn and practice while in the cooling period but I always feel fear what if I won’t be able to meet the expectations. What if I won’t be able to deliver the work. What will they think of me and how embarrassing it will be for me to work where I don’t have experience and need help of others to get there.
Even though I haven’t got into project yet but this thinking is eating me and I’m feeling depressed and weak. I wasted my almost 2 years and got nothing. I want to work and grow, I Janice my skills, ready for working hard but my past project experience is haunting me, where I feel completely blank when some user story thrown to me to build.
I’m trying to learn everyday but feel it’s not enough. Can anyone tell me how to tackle this situation and get through it. I feel depressed and lost on overthink. Couldn’t sleep or eat thinking of what will happen in coming days.
Hey buddy, no one knows, how much is ENOUGH. The fact that you are trying and pushing yourself out of comfort zone is a sign of progress. Be honest with self and your peers while taking up a task. There is no shame in admitting if you don't know. See feedback and help wherever required. We are all figuring it out . So enjoy the ride!!
Thank you for you words and motivation. It means a lot to me. I’m just tensed as I don’t have any prior Handson experience and expertise. And as I got selected as a Sde 2 , company will expect expertise and prior experience and they will provide task based on that only. How will I deal with it that’s eating me.
You got selected as a sde 2 and thats a big achievement. Just trust in your hardwork.
Thank you buddy for you motivation.it’s just I don’t have prior Hands on experience on the tech, just the concepts and knowledge. As I got selected for Sde 2 they will expect me to do complex task with minimum help. That’s what eating me up
You didn’t waste 2 years, you spent them learning. Now you have a new job, focus on it. Reach out for help outside your team if you aren’t able to do it on you own. I’m sure there are a lot of folks on GV who would pitch in to help.
PS: I’m not sure if it’s a typo or if nobody explained it to you. But I think the word you were trying to use was “Hands On” but you kept using “Hanson”.
Yes buddy, thanks a lot for your kind words and motivation. I will surely follow what you said. But I got selected as an Sde 2, they expect me to work on complex task will minimum help. That what eating me up.
And yes buddy it was typo error, I’ve correctly spelled in the above sentence if you notice
buddy if you got selected as an SDE 2, you can survive and thrive. don’t over think
Thank you buddy for you words and motivation. It’s just I worked hard while preparing for interview and grasp all the concepts they would ask in interviews and cleared it. I have knowledge but don’t have prior Handson experience, even though I’m practising in my free time. But as a Sde 2 they would expect me to deliver and work on complex task without much help. And I’m still not confident. That’s what eating me up.
I am 25 yrs old guy belongs to a middle class family, always dreamed of doing good for my family. Did btech and got into infosys as software developer (all though was never interested in coding) at a decent package thinking of a bright c...
I am 25 yrs old guy belongs to a middle class family, always dreamed of doing good for my family. Did btech and got into infosys as software developer (all though was never interested in coding) at a decent package thinking of a bright c...
I was in infosys for 1 yr 10 months. I got training in MEAN stack that was just formality and after that they put me on bench. As a fresher even I don’t give that much focus and enjoyed the new beginning. After being on bench of 3-4 mont...
